shopaholic!!!!

well another week has past...nothing much happened...well..something happened but i choose not to talk about it coz i wanna ignore it...as if i dunno bout it at all...happy things happened..unhappy ones happened too..but i guess no one wants to know about it anyway...rite???haha..well...lets move on...
erm how i should i say about this...just say that i've been to somewhere with a fren of mine..to accompany her to shop for her mom's birthday present...well just so-called "accompany" her la..hahaha...she n first went to metrojaya's christian dior store...bought lipstick for her mom...then we went shopping around lor...actually only planned to find one formal shirt for my upcoming recital on this coming tuesday...coz i dun wanna wear black...man i just love malaysia...with all the mega-sales on...haha...everything goes so cheap...its like the shirts are calling me to try them on..hahaha..tempting u know...well i'm a shopaholic...a smart one where the shopaholic charater in me only comes out when there's mega-sales around...smart eh!!!??haha...went to XOXO...everything are so cheap there!!!u wouldnt believe it..haha...saw many pretty dresses around but we dun really have the time to try them on...so i managed to get a white skirt...half price!!!!so happy with it...then we went to F.O.S to search for my formal shirt...well didnt get anything there..but yirui managed to get a pair of shorts...for sleeping..haha.after our previous time we went there n totally forgotten bout the time...we went to breadstory to buy bread...next stop...Rest n Relax...rui wanted to take a look at the items on sale..coz it was really cheap...rm10-rm30..but nothing nice..so we went on to P&Co...sale here too...10%-50% on selected items...managed to get a tank top that i've been eyeing..haha...well if u ever eyed aything from P&Co,be patient n wait for a few months...they will have sale very frequently on those not so new clothes...then,its the best time u get the top that u've been eyeing...trust me...it works everytime..ahaha..and dun need to worry bout the sizes..they will have plenty of stocks.we see that stilll got some time before the mall closes..we went to edmunsel...rui wanted to see if the top that her mom eyed got stock anot wor..then we went to la senza..haha...sale again lo...is mega-sale and everything's cheap...this is the best time for u to shop...so next year..make sure u save up ur portion of money for shopping only to spend it during mega-sale...we tried on bras n bikinis..hahaha...rui eyed on a white bikini...well it suits her as she's got her assets..haha...as for me my mom still 'owe' me one bra...so i dun need to buy..haha..went home after that...friday late morning my mom went to cheras,near my coll there to perm hair...so waited for her lo while me n rui hanged out at the saloon,enjoying aircond n reading mag..haha...then mom fetch my dad from my grandma's hse then went to parade..promise to bring me for bra shopping again..haha...well sale again lor..hhaha...this time my mom bought 2 for me..after that..my mom went to cold storage n i went to voir....sales there mah..so didnt want to miss the chance..well managed to get a black tube top..also half price...after done shopping we went to ss14 for dinner..ate bak kut teh..my mom wanted to buy flowers for praying...chengbeng mah..haha...then we went home d lor...just some picture below..



black tube top..suitable for any formal occasions..haha...


XOXO white skirt lo...


its in peach colour..dunno why my camera's picture quality changed during the nite..


da label.....

happy day...

saturday went out with bi to parade to find my dad's birthday pressie..then had out lunch at sakae sushi..ate alot wor..spend rm48 there..haha...then went to taipan's little black book..baby brought me there..then also went to the gray but didnt buy anything that day..at nite went to sunway for steamboat dinner with my family...ate alot also as the food is unresistable..hahaha...
sunday...todaya went to pyramid n parade for shopping de lo..my parents brought me out to buy shoes n clothes-that-u-wear-inside..ahha...



tomyam bihun that me n angela cooked...it was really delicious..haha



dingding...may u r.i.p n we were sorry to you..aihz....



my mom bought for me de lor...love it n its design is really cool...


nike shoe that my mom choosed n paid by my dad..thanx dad!!!!


seventeen mag that i bought myself...


all of my stuff...hahaha..so happy eveytime i see this pic..=p


contact lens that i bought lo...still got another box de..but out of stock d..have to wait for 2 weeks...100bucks gone d....


nice aa this bottle??baby bought it for me de...cute rite..hehe...

我的心声。。。

她，诉说了我的心声，我心里的感受。。。

因初吻着你想庆祝
你却开始疏远我
假使你是觉得怯懦
你会不会拒绝我
你有意欲去找我
你会通电再会过
如实在认真喜欢我
或则游行敷衍我
如今只有三岁都清楚
是你不想我啦
甚至不找我啦
无非几天变化
就像刮我几千巴
难道你共我亲吻抱拥之后竟有偏差
不想和我好
请求直说真话
很想你是爱得懒惰
至会多天不理我
心境正遂秒钟跌堕
我哪一样有做错
过去你极爱惜我
快慰之后侮辱我
曾自问自私开心过
自问自己担心过
如今的我只要知清楚
没有胆色缠你
心乱如麻
回去吧回去吧
来让我伤口结疤
是你不想我吗
是你不找我吗
无非几天变化
就像刮我几千巴
难道你共我亲吻抱拥之后竟有偏差
不想和我好
不如直说真话

失望，就有如从高楼上掉下来。结果。。。伤痕累累。

许多许多次，我是有多么的失望。。。你们对我的好，我感到很感激。我一直把你们当成我的好友，知己；但是，你们又知不知道，我有无数次，仿佛从一个很高很高的地方甩下来。一次又一次地感到伤痕累累。我的感觉从来并没有好过过。也许是我单方面的付出并没有人察觉到，或是一直以来都是我一个人的心甘情愿，自愿的把希望放在你们的身上。我不知道，是不是我对你们的期望太高，令我自己失望；是不是我过于敏感，一直以为你在扁坦她。不论你们心里想什么或做什么，我认为并不是我过于敏感的认为如此。或许你们认为它的为人可以接受得了，也不是说我不能接受她，但是我并不觉得我大家应该一直在忍让。你们对她的坦护，虽然你们觉得你们并没有恶意，只是觉得他很可怜，一直受人家的欺负，所以一直在袒护他。但是我就时常变成那个可恶的人，没人在我的立场想过我的感受。我想说，我的感受并不好。我一直都觉得很无奈，对我的人生感到厌倦，对我的人生感到很累很累。有好几次我是多么想就这样放弃我的生命，对我人生中说发生的一切一切，一切都不值得我保留或珍惜；但我知道，放弃自己生命的人是非常的愚蠢。当我读了你所写的文章，我忽俄的好比失望。但是这感觉我再也不感到陌生了，已经觉得麻木了。你说看到的她并不是真实的她。就如你所说的那天我们去吃晚餐，她一直在试着逗大家高兴，她所做的都是为大家好，但我何尝又不是呢？我一直都在忍让，但是你们都知道我一向脾气都不好，如有什么不高兴就会表现在脸上。我一直都觉得很无奈。。。你们是我有史以来最要好的一班朋友，但是当我需要你们的支持是，得来的却是另一位朋友的鼓励，了解与支持。一次又一次地感到失望，令我对你觉得心淡了。对不起，并不是我要的结果。好友知己，并不用多，一个就好。但愿他明白我，了解我，在我需要她的时候她会在我身边支持我，那接好了。我要求并不多。。。我以为我已找到了一班很好的朋友，令我觉得我再也不用再带着面具，可以很坦诚地对待大家；但是我得来的却不是我想象中的美好。。。
做人真累。。。

give me ur heart...can u???

(sunday)just got back to my cheras condo...everything's in a mess...there's even a completed puzzle on the floor...dunno who's also...bags n clothes everywhere...the house is as messy as ever...dirty as usual..a sight where i already got fed up off...whats the point of me tidy up the house when few hours later..someone might just simply put theri things again...n once again back to its messy-ness..wouldnt they wonder or noticed if the house i being tidied or what so ever...well...fed up with it and got nothing else more to say...speechless..i used to think that going back home is going to be a nightmare coz my family just doesnt work out..but like out of the blue..everything seems to work out just well..everything went on smoothly without anything unwanted happened..well i gotta admit that me n my mom has never been closer in ages...which is something i'm happy about...
heard a few songs on the tv...brought back alot of memories...well..i supposed its not those happy ones la..haha..sometimes u might think that if u treat people well..they will treat u well too...haha...that was what i was thinking...stupid??not really..naive??i think so...世界就是那么的现实。天真想法的人终是会吃亏。大家都在利用对方。现实的生活本来就是那么的残酷。以心比心，大多数的人都会这么说，但是，事实上又有多少人会这样做？
(friday)me and my frens got robbed last nite...in the giant parking area..damn those stupid robbers..aihz..lost all of our handphones..and my frens got hit by them..how i wish that my boyfriend manage to find them out...i'll hit them back till their shit come out from their asses...darn them!!hope that they'll get their lesson soon enough...but it was a very valuable lesson to all of us that were involved..patrick always told me n warn me not to go out at night..said that the place that i live in is a very notorious place..but i never really listen to him..i called him when i got home after bring robbed..he rushed to cheras..to see if we were okay or not..then he brought us to lodge a police report...then we were redirected to the police headquaters at jalan cheras...well that was the first time i been into a police station so late at nite..around 3am something..then we left there around 5.10am..then went home...cant really sleep although i was really tired..everytime i think back of what happened..it just send the chills right thru my whole body...it was really scary...but most of all..really wanna thank my bf...for being there for me when i needed him...n helped me n my frens with all the truobles..fetched us go to police station n all...thanx bi..love u so much...

losses faith...looses all...

how would u feel if someone who's close to u...werent there for u when u needed them...instead..they helped other person...n suddenly...ur bf would like telling u to get on with life n not to make a fuss out of what happened...u thought that he was the one that trully understands u...yet..at this kinda time..he talked that way...i already have a bunch of people which i cant trust n lost faith on them...n i dun seriously doesnt need one more...everytime when something happened...i'm the one being left aside...well they just thought that i keep bullying that person...n the person's very pityful..so they all helped the person..but...do they even think bout how i felt all these time??just try to be fair n think if ur all are in my shoes..people....kinda lose hope on u..looses faith on u...whatelse do i need...nothing...all these while i'm just trying to be fair to everyone in this place...everyone share everything...so does all the work..i dont know whether ur people are blind or what or just think that i'm the one which making drama all the time...please open up ur eyes n look around okay..i know everyone has got their own character n all..but what the person did was seriously too much...and its not fair for all of us to bare with that just like that...when i'm trying to be fair...almost everyone stood against me...i was like the biggest enemy...the evil one..trying to act pity...with everything u say...just shut the fuck up...i thought that i've found a bunch of frens which i can treat them sincerely...unlike in secondary schu life...but i just found out that...nothing has changed..maybe i was too naive to even think that way...everytime i think back of what happened..我已经对你们觉得很心淡。心恢毅冷。looses faith..looses all....thank you to u people for teaching me a valueable lesson...never ever to put high hopes on people which u think that they are ur frens...you'll never know that in just a blink of an eye...they might betray u or something...beware...trust no one but urself n ur parents...coz they're the only one which will only wants the best for u...they wont betray u....