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in around 24 hours later...i'll be enjoying my sem break like its none of anyone's business..wahaha...the thoughts of me having fun....hahaha...totally cant wait lo...and imma party like mad 2mr night....sweet...=D

slept at 6am this morning..and i didnt went for class..woke up around 11 something...coz all i could think of was my AMus paper...so decided to get up and continue writing...went out for lunch then went for choir practise....so damn tired lo..cant sing..no support...sigh...came home after that like a walking corpse...couldnt sleep either....at last decided to take a short nap...but booohooo!!!! couldnt sleep....dunno when am i gonna be back to normal lifestyle again...sigh...

just thinking bout the plans after 2mr...damn happy already can..make me damn hyper and keep fighting to finish up my paper so i dun need to worry bout it anymore...hahaha....


kayz...gotta go continue with my AMus...party...wait for me..i'll see you soon!!!!!

I Shall Not Bother At All...

good morning to all fellow humans..its 5.07am right now...and i'm here to blog..my very first time bloggin at such an early hour of a day...

exam week...jury on monday...kinda screwed up my Mozart Sonata...but surprisingly my Fantasie Impromtu was alrite on the Boston...ahahha...imma just cross my fingers tightly and hope for the best on the result.

after Dithyrambic practise...well was for there for like half an hour only coz we attended fren's Grad Recital...so got home...chat abit..surfed the net abit...played around abit...went out yamcha...hang out with frens...life's good...=D came home around 3am...and decided that i should start writtin my AMus final paper..since all the people in my house are wide awake...even LINGLING....when i was walking to my door, i saw her room well lit...lights still on...was surprised that she's still awake at this hour...so now everyone is busy doing their own thing....some studying for 2mr's history paper...some busy doing AMus paper...some in the room dunno doing what..lolz...

feeling quite sleepy right now actually.and outside is raining heavily..super nice to sleep lo...but then i'm having a good mood in writing paper...so still deciding whether should i sleep or not...lol


got class at 9am...sigh...might not be going actually..see how la...lol...

kayz...gonna go continue with my paper...if not i shall sleep...=)

good nite and good morning..=)

p.s.: loves to all the people i care...you know who u are..=)

muahzmuahz..

Stranger in the Pictures

i'm seriously getting more and more lazy by each day..sigh..i'm supposed to practise my piano for my jury 2mr..and i have a 3000-words paper to write..yet since i got home on friday..all i did was bum around at home..surf the net..watch hk series...sigh...


anyways..just a short update...i know this is so damn long ago..almost a month ago...Dithyrambic Singers' production at 20-22nd of March @ KLPac..

1st day...

got home after our very 1st nite of public performance.


looking stupid with the hairdo..well after removing the rubberbands and bobby pins..hahah


2nd Day

after the performances...Maggie and Johan...we brought pillows and blankets for an afternoon short nap..lol

Fang Ting, Maggie, Chai Ying, Clar, Lai Yee, Ke Ee, Ling, Weicheng..and in front..sorry i forgotten your name...(paiseh...)lol

Wuji and Maggie....get well soon Wuji..=)

Cynthia, Laiyee, Rachel,Wenchin, Clar, Ke Ee, Ling, Fang Ting, and Su Mei

ling, clar and wen chin

Eddy, Clar and Ling. was on the phone with my mom...my parents went for the performance..

still on the phone..lol

with Xiao Ting...still on the phone..lol

after that we went to a mamak nearby...miss the apong there...(T___T)

3rd Day

Ling..rui said u looked like some emcee...some very professional emcee..ahaha..i personally like this pic alot..

with Ke Ee..just when i finally got to know ur name..u changed name pulak...hopefully i did spell ur name correctly...=D

Clar, Suriram (inside joke), and ling.

Ryan and Zhong...asked Zhong to help us take pic..but they both kept snapping themselves...SS..lol

Yao Tiao, Clar and Sim li...

Clar and Joon Kie...thanks for the sponsorship from Manhattan Fish Market...=D...fed us well and i put on some weight after our production..lol

aiya i guess u guys know who is he already..so no need further intro...

Last row: Cynthia, Bee Theng, Choon Leong, Suriram(Karen), Chi Mei, Clar, Maggie, Mel, Eddy.

Front row: Wen Chin, Oskar, Su Mei, Jeannie, Ling, Kian.

with my highschool fren..WuJun. he did the recording for us...=D

Ryan, Clar, Sim Li and Rachel.

Clar's pillow,Clar and THE PRODUCER of this production...Mr. Vincent Kang..sorry the shadow covered half of ur face..lol

outfit for friday...8am class...was sorta rushing to get to uni..lazy to think of what to wear..so i just grabbed the a white shirt and a vest, and my faithful Levi's and off i went for a 4 hours-long class...evening my bro went to pick me up from cheras..so i wore a black shorts..matched with a punk-looking studded belt...haha...dunno look like what coz of the super rojak style..but overall i did looked like a waitress la..hahah

this is what i call the self-inflicted wound..as you know i always get bruises on my legs..especially on my knees...so i took someone's advice and to rub on the bruise to make the blueblack go away..so last nite i was doing so...and without realising..too carried away with the rubbing and with the series i was watching...as i rubbed i a burning pain..and when i looked at it..a patch of skin came out...really dunno what to say bout myself...hahahaha....end product...like the pic..but worse now..coz blood goozed out from the skin torn part...(yea i know i'm gross.but whatever...)

had to put plaster on it before sleep to avoid scratching it more..(T_____T)

being my usual self as usual...lolz...and sorry if u think this so lame...coz i've got nothing better to do..

sometimes i look at the pics i've taken...all i see is a stranger in the pics...i dont recognize myself anymore..somehow when looking at the pics of myself..i felt like i dun really know the girl in the pictures..she seems like a total stranger to me...have i lost my identity?


Stranger in the Pictures...

next update...party post...

Loves,

muahzmuahz...

Too Many Things Left Unsaid...

last nite after choir concert and our regular yamcha session...went home and decided to watched movie...and yes i know i'm very outdated for not watching Ip Man til last nite...coz before that i was busy...and somehow just didnt watch..dont ask me why...and ever since i became single...the times of me going to cinema gone lesser...so yea..haha...





IpMan...like this show alot...after hearing such good comments and feed backs on this movie..its good...and look at Donnie yen...he's hot....HOT....hahaha



damn good looking lo...i dun care if u dont think so...



hot bod....he's damn yeng can..haha...


kays i think i gone abit too much on him..but he's damn hot lo..whole package..the looks and the hot bod...when i was watching IpMan...totally mesmerized by him when he's doing his kungfu...can faint...hahaha...but then too bad..he's married...haha...


this week been weird i guess...dunno how to describe it...although i'm having finals...well as though i dont really bother much bout my exams anymore...numbed from all those anxiety...dunno whether its a good thing or bad...other than that..i'm kinda free...having nothing much to do except on perfecting my pieces for my jury..i guess i just need more time to get used to and get comfortable with those pieces...but i'm lacking of time...sigh..hope for the best guys...just hope that i'll be able to do fine and pass it..i dun wanna fail as i cant afford to extend my studies...

too used to having such a busy and hectic lifestyle.and when i have nothing much to do..i feel damn not used to it...its not that i start to think bout stuff..i didnt...well...maybe occasionally...but then i feel like i'm wasting my time doing nothing...guess i'm damned to have a busy and suffering lifestyle..where i shall not be able to enjoy my life no matter what..hahah


anyways...sometimes coz too many things are left unsaid...thus all those misunderstanding and stuff...before you do something..please think twice of the consequences that come with it...things are never easy as u think they are...sigh..guess i'm lost with my words again..there's so many things i wish i could say..but unfortunately those are just words i could only keep with me...at times when words are better left unsaid..but sometimes u just gotta make ur point clear to people in order to avoid some very terible misunderstanding...


good weekend ahead ppl...

muahzmuahz...

New Header!!!again...

good morning people!!!

couldnt sleep as once again my sleeping time gone crazy coz last nite (or early this morning) i was having series marathon...watched ANTM cycle 12 and 3 episodes of Gossip Girl..only went to bed at 5.30am...and i skipped this morning's class...how genius...woke up at 1 something in the afternoon.bummed around the house..and asked vic to teman me out for lunch as i was starving..after that send ling to uni and i dropped by at uni to check out my exam timetable for 2mr...then came back home and bummed around more and practise piano...went out for dinner...after dinner asked vic to teman me go back uni to practise in recital hall as i'm having jury next monday..wanna try out and get familiar with the piano's touch..

actually at first i planned to go alone..and someone so smart told me :"you dunno recital got ghost aaahh??" wtf made me damn scared..so in the end i brought someone along with me...so while he was there...i 'commissioned' him to make a new header for my blog...and here it is...i like it alot..thanx alot!!!=D what do you guys think??do leave a comment yea.=) btw just now xiaotian came over to practise conducting with me as we'll be having finals 2mr...and i showed them my blog..xiaotian went:"who's that girl??" and i was like..staring at her..and tell her that "its my blog la..." damn funny lo..people couldnt recognize me...do i look that different??lol....

btw the four pics in the new header was accidentally chosen and placed in chronology...from left to right, being the recent of me to the oldest, dated back a year ago...from my bushy hair to permed hair, and different style of permed hair and to straight hair..four changes of hair style in less than a year...genius!!!


anyways if your just wondering why am i so free this week while last week i was so damn stressed out and depressed with my studies and life...well coz i've managed to finished my AMus paper on sunday..and today i'm so damn free that its feeling damn weird...having nothing to do...wanted to watch series before hitting the bed..but my hard disc is with vic as he accidentally brought home with him...so i decided to update my blog...

this post is gonna super random...



remember posts ago i was saying that i hit my feet against my room's door and i 'threw' myself to the door of the room next door? and this is the end product...super huge patch of blueblack on my right feet.its not obvious in this pics..in fact i tried taking alot of pics and this is the best among all..in real life..my feet was purple and black...serious shyt!! blueblacks spreading from the 3rd and 4th toes til the feet area...and some cuts too...i'm seriously too geng...hahah



fish n chips @ Carl's jr...had this for dinner before our show...watched Watchmen..and that show is so damn ridiculous..i just simply dun understand and i'm not bothered with understanding it...spend almost 3 hours in cinema without having a clue what are they trying to say...


the weekend where i got to borrow eddy's car as he went down to Singapore...

me driving..

this is the best i can do while driving..didnt dare to take my eyes off the road..

so now i know how i look when i'm driving..so ugly can...sigh...

had lunch at a pizza place...forgotten the name..fetched them down for hangkai and to buy stuff for our dithyrambic concert use...

genting view from my condo...never fail to fasinates me everytime i see it...i'm such a kid...sigh..

got this cute lights deco from our trip down to melacca...original plan was to put it in my room back in shah alam's house..but then that time i've decided not to go home often..so in the end i put in cheras..

my night light...damn nice..like it alot..now i dun need to sleep without lights anymore..=)

this bruise on my shoulder...how i got it??well it was weeks back when i was rushing to get dressed for MDG party in Mist club in Bangsar...couldnt balance well and i fell towards my wardrobe..and my shoulder hit the edge of the wardrobe...the pain was like hell i tell you..i went shouting for awhile..lol..the skin came out and there was a cut and blueblack again..

i think this is days or maybe a week later...the cut was obvious...even til now it still hurts abit when pressure is applied there..and the cut is still visible...

view from my condo...taken by vic using my cam...i'm damn amazed with the picture quality my cam able to produce..didnt know at all..

fell sick after Dithyrambic production/performance...this is the amount of medicine i need to eat 3 times a day..that few day i swear i can taste medicine all the time...it sux...hate to fall sick now..even though its been 2 weeks back..but i'm still not fully recovered yet..still having abit of flu and cough..but i'm way way better now..

so hyper now...coz having my frens around me hours ago..actually made my day...this afternoon woke up feeling like shyt...feeling lost..but they put my back on track..thanx so much for making my day guys..love you all!!!

finals week...next week will be purely exam..

til the next update...

toodles..

muahzmuahz..

loves to all...

Productive Thursday

its been 2 months since i have such "productive" thursdays...thats if u know what i mean..hahah!!! party has subconsciously became my motivation...undeniably knowing i'll be hitting the club last nite, somewhat got me motivated into doing things better...in my past 17 years of playing the piano, i never once practised piano twice a day!!! yea sad to say it but its true..XD and seriously its been a while since i've been so productive...i tried my very best during vocal class, played my best during my major class, and actually loving all 3 of my instrument classes in a day...it has been rather taxing..but i love yesterday... it wasnt that bad at 1st when i thought bout it...maybe coz i've been stressing out myself abit too much lately...ahhh final year..what do ya expect, no??

MOS has changed slightly since the last time i went back in february...time flies...good ol' days of clubbing life 2 months back..where i partied every week for almost 2 months straight...yup missed those days...where soofun was back in msia...somewhat missed clubbing with them...its the company that counts i guess..no? lol last nite had some good times with frens...gossippin bout everything we can talk about...lol girls will always be girls...and please dun say guys dont gossip..coz they do!!! just like us girls..=) stayed for an hour plus at Darus after MOS...laughed my ass out til my stomach cramped and gosh it hurt like shyt...lol was thinking of staying up awake since i'll need to wake up at 7.30am for uni...but in the end..."accidentally" fell asleep...was more of napping actually...coz all i slept at 6am ish and woke up at 7.30am...went to uni and continued my napping sessions in practise room for half an hour more...and warmed up for my major class...has been a good and productive class this morning...learnt alot..masterclass after that...stayed awake throughout..came home and crashed on my bed til 3pm..luckily i managed to woke up in time to pack my stuff for the weekend...

yea i'm now back in shah alam again...figured out that i would be stuck in cheras with nothing much to do except for more practising and AMus paper...so i made up my mind and came home..this week has been rather weird of me for wanting to come home so much...missed my home...although its so warm here...the afternoon heat all trapped in the house..sigh...guess it has been all the pain that i've been putting myself through lately..and i need some space and family love to get myself recovered...

sometimes i still think about the past...has been like that for the past week...self inflicted pains...its time to face my fears, my past and those ugly memories..letting go is another issue as i've gone way past all of those "letting go" time...getting hurt and recovering from it is another ...and best part of all that its a process that hurt the most...yea finally gotten myself to admit all these shyts...who doesnt go thru shyts rite...been living in denial for the past 4 months...its a way of coping i guess...been so tough on myself...so now i'm trying to cut me some slacks...a sense of relieve..been very much of a danger to myself...=)

someone said that i've been so philosophycal lately...(does this word exist??did it get the spelling right?) been blabbing much. i tends to rush into something..for things to happen...bad bad bad...when things are not meant to be..you get what i mean? let it be...let it be...

hmmm there's so much i wanna share with you guys out there.dont care whether u actually bothered with reading my blog..if you do..i appreaciate it alot thank you...if you dont..its none of my concern anyways...love me hate me or what u have to say bout me...its ur choice.
thats all i wanna share for now...been neglecting my another diary for some time...coz lately i just feel like sharing my inner thoughts and personal feelings here...

thats about it i guess...

much loves to all of you.
muahzsmuahzs...


p.s.: still blasting on my songs everyday...it sure does make me feel better of myself...stay strong and fight!!!

Cendol Cendol!!!

just wanna get this done with as i dun wanna keep dragging it any longer...since i'm sorta free right now...

this trip down to Melacca dated a month ago

woke up early as we were supposed to meet up at 7am here at condo..but as usual...some woke up late and stuff like that..in the end i went back to sleep for awhile while waiting...



sun rising...a brand new day...

went for breakfast before started our journey down..we had dimsum at a restaurant nearby...

group pic..

reaching A Famosa..

like this pic alot...

thiery

ling and thiery

lala and vic..who was then busy concerntrating on the road

rui

silly us...while waiting for vic to get us tickets

this mascot guy damn naughty..tried to scare ling when she was walking towards him to ask for a pic together...

nel and qq

silly me...coz i was damn happy to go out with my frens..

kay think i've gone abit too far...



after hours of playing...

resting while having lunch..some waiting for their turn to shower and have lunch...

camwho skills up to a higher level

very hot weather...and our table was directly under the hot sun without any shade..

zoomed in kao kao to get this super candid pic of some guy's butt crack..lol

guess who's this??

it was lala...weather too hot couldnt stand it..

tyring to dry our swimming attire

trying to be funny every now and then...

after A Famosa, we went into the town for food and jalan jalan..

obviously this pic was not taken by me la...i'm not this skilled..

brought them for the famous cendol...oh yea..hueyhsiang is also called Cendol...lol

and the laksa

of coz, not forgetting my fav nyonya rendang chicken noodles...

ze couples.

a big dslr like this still couldnt hide my huge square face entirely...sad case..

lousy pic like this is proven to be my work of art...

sitting by the roadside waiting for time to pass to go for satay celup dinner

as u can already figure out that i'm super lazy to put in captions..

yup i've gone back to my old weight...super chubby face..sigh...

see the chesnut shells/skin (whatever u wanna call them) all over the floor?

hah!!!this 3 who eats them...and litter around..except for rui..

both of them too...

dun ask me why i even think of posing like this...

why i kept camwho with lala only???

and at the same exact location...

i find this tree damn cute for hanging those small lil keychains..

a small walk way filled with plants all around, entrance to some cafe..

trying to immitate the skinny metal keychain...i'm not that thin also...

the last stop before leaving Melacca...the famous satay celup at jln ong kim wee..i used to stayed there many years ago when my grandpa was still around...

nah there u have it...its obvious i update my blog for the sake of updatting it..just too lazy to think of captions...too many pics...

actually i have plenty more updates to do..well guess imma gonna leave it for some other time...there will be an outing down to KL with ling and thiery, and our very own public performance at KLPac 2 weeks back...

see when i'm free..thats when imma gonna update...

til then...

muahzmuahz....

P.s.:btw..Happy April's Fool Day!!!