in just such short period of time..so much had happened..sometimes when u stop in the track of time,think about all that has happened in ur life,no matter is it for good or bad..its still sometimes hard to belief what u see has actually happened..and sometimes,its kinda hard to deal the truth...of so many things that should happen...it all came down to this conclusion..everyone's got their own past,dark secret which they just keep to themselves to this very day..in fear that if people were to know bout it,how people will see her as a person??i dont know since when i hate major changes so much, that i myself have already changed so much that i didnt even noticed..i hate changes..but its not for me to choose coz there are things that happened are beyond our control...its not like we have a choice..i've been thinking alot..things definately wouldnt be the same anymore...i think in future when i stop to think about now,i would miss our time together,the kinda things we did together,the places which holds so much of our memory...things wouldnt be the same anymore.and i hated it so much...even when there's still no changes..YET....
i've been thinking bout myself..what kinda person i was in the last few months since so many things happened back then..as i could recall...i was this girl that have no fear in changes,i trusted everyone and all of their words..i was extremely naive..stupid...think so highly of myself that people wont betray my trust...but now..i'm a person who's so scared of any changes..any changes...i never trust people like how i used to be..i see things from some other angle to help me judge a person or an issue...i've been so protective of my fragile heart that i've becoming into some bad person..sometimes i think that..maybe if i became someone so rebellious that i could protect myself...i'm really tired and confused..what will happen next???
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