god my blog is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo dead.....

yea promise to update once i'm better and free okie???

Emo emo Days...

sometimes...don u just wish that everything goes smoothly...i wish...i wish to have what i desire..but things just dont go that way..nope it never did..yea??confused as always...thinking of stuff..wondering bout life,issues regarding my life...i was talked about leaving the country...for the better future by someone..yet he dont seem like he have any intention in doing so...well..sometimes its really hard to leave the place ur brought up,the place where holds all of our sweet and bitter memories..place that has been our comfort zone...its not easy..but what is easy in our lifetime???nothing...

i used to be a person who thinks of stuff just purely as they are...some might call me a person with a pure heart..and some just might call me naive...yes..naive...i used to trust and believe every single word that comes out from people's mouth..somehow it just never occur to me that people does have bad intentions againts me...

i used to think that...i dont really give a damn bout what people have to say bout me or think bout me as its my life and i can do and life just the way i want it to be...

i used to think that things are just as easy as they appear to me..

u can just say that i'm a person who can just belief anyone..and just simply any people...

every now and then...when things just goes smoothly..no obstacles and nothing is wrong..i somehow manage to find something to be suspected with..coz..i dont want to belief that things are just as easy and simple as they might appear to me...i dont believe as easy as before..i've been hurt coz i believe in him too much..i trust him too much..i convinced myself that i should trust him...

and then all the truth come pouring down on me like raining sharp knives...

lessons are learned...wounds are healed..but scars will always be there...i literally tear open my wounds on my heart over and over again just to feel....to feel what had happened before and set it as a painful reminder to myself...
love and hate...they are just a thin fine line away...

there are moments that i found myself hate him more than ever...and i simply just dont know why...

sometimes..i just wondered...how does it feel like smoking??i really wanna try that out...yea just with a simply lame excuse..to smoke my pain and insecurities away...

but i know i'll hate myself if i do that...just as much as how i hated people i love and care that smoke...i'm afraid that i'll love that feeling and not wanting to quit..suddenly..i feel so scared and threated by a tiny lil cigarette....i just dont have the guts...

New Year's Eve Count Down...

as promised...gonna update bout new year's eve...aint gonna say much..so let the pics speaks for themselves...btw we went to Mont Kiara...bi's mom works there...and the event was organized by her company, Sunrise...

me


hubby


rui


lynn


lala


and lala's hubby, victor


lala got an airbrush tattoo..


sweet sweet couple..














dreaming...












rui's shoe...


love this pic..=)..noticed the couple behind???






the crowd..



















after count down we went to ss2 for supper...went to some cafe...



my hp..




group pic...bi damn bad lo..pity lala..hahaha


last pic for the post of the day....

Days Before 2008

finally college has started again..and i'm in my 3rd sem..yea still a 1st year student..haha..anyways..didnt had the time and patience and not to forget whats the most important factor in blogging...the mood for blogging...finally bring myself to update before i have tonnes of pics to upload and also rite before my schu gets busy..hmm gonna be updating bout the days rite before 2008 and schu reopens as i got to spend time with my baby...well i'm actually at his house now,on his bed now blogging...lolz..yea..got some few pics to share..
that day when my bro fetched me back to cheras..we stopped by @ pyramid to get his new-found-super-expensive-hobby-toy...Canon S400D..if i didnt get mixed up with the model number..well its a SLR..spend quite some time in pyramid..especially in Fotokem..got himself quite a good deal for the SLR..happy for him..and it will also be my new toy of interest the next time i goes back home..i really thought of taking up photography as a hobby though it is a really expensive one...

this pic was taken on xmas itself when i went out with my family to shopping..well just took it using my W810i only...

well after went back to cheras..bi brought me back to his place to spend a few days with him before my college reopens..we were supposed to go Pulau Ketam on the 30th with his mom and his sis...but in the end we woke up like real late coz we slept real late..so after lunch his mom brought us out to KL instead...went to Sungei Wang..parked the car some where near Sungei Wang then we headed off to Pavilion..we all never been there..and i've been wanting to go check out that place..i thought that its quite some distance from Sungei Wang...but his mom asked her collegues and somehow we managed to find out our way there..well it was quite near actually..and this coming tuesday me and rui is going down KL to jalan-jalan...coming up are some pics of Pavilion..







really like the decos there..its like a totally different class of shopping experience..me likey!!

we walked around exploring the mall..after that we headed to Carlos, a Mexican cuisine restaurant to grab some food..just a really light meal..

me and hubby=)


this is nachos...we ordered tacos too...not bad..1st time eating mexican cuisine...

after that we went back to Sungei Wang and i managed to get myself some bling bling accesories..glittering bangles...me likey!!!=)after that we left and was supposed to go to The Curve for dinner..

in the car..


i've got myself a hair cut...looking for a good salon for a good deal on hair-dying...still considering whether to perm my hair or not...

well as i've mentioned just now...we were supposed to be heading off to The Curve after Sungei Wang..but his mom took a wong turn and we ended up on our way to Mont Kiara..well then changed of plans..we had our dinner @ Souled Out...its really a nice place...me likey alot!!!=)

we went out for yamcha with frens in sunway..headed home around 2 something...lucky thing is i checked bi's licence only to realise that it was already 2-days expired..so we reached home and talked to his parents bout bring bi to go renew his licence the next day as we planned to go out for count down at nite..so its best to have an actually still working licence since we'll be heading down to KL...so the next morning we woke up real early in the morning..like 8 something...went down to Shah Alam's JPJ to renew licence...then we headed down to klang for Pulau Ketam..on our way there we stopped by at some old shop selling the famous Klang Bak kut Teh..which its soup is the thick type..not like those we have in Subang Jaya...find our own way to the jetty to Pulau Ketam..

finally there we were..at the jetty...the weather then was reallly really burning hot...together with the hot sea breeze..


this small ferry??ship?? is heading to Indonesia..it cost around rm185 per person's fare and it takes around 8 freaking hours to reach...and u'll end up having a really numb ass when u reach back ur hometown....and u know how those ppl handle ur luggage??they just simply chuck and kick everything..basically just throw ur luggage around..imagine if ur to smuggle back to Indon in some big China bag...trust me..u will hurt really badly...maybe even die....=/imagine this scene where ur in the small and trapped ship...paid some 185 bucks to sit some really bad condition ships..can see it with ur real own eyes how the workers handle ur luggage....




in the boat...to Pulau Ketam...boat fare is rm7 per person and free for childrens...




finally around 45 minutes later..we've reached the jetty...u can really smell sea and those dried seafoods...








this is the public toilet once u got off the boat....no water,no tissue...and u know where does all ur wastes goes to????


just rite beneath the toilet on the the mud/wet sand....i can even see water drippings and all when bi's grandpa was in the loo.....


resting at someone's shop/house..this town is really dirty..they are living above the sea and their rubbish....i'm serious k...
after walking around the small town. under the super hot weather...we ended up at some restaurant to take our lunch before heading back to Klang...

waiting for the boat....




pity bi...tired and hot,sweaty and sticky..waiting for the boat...



the ride back to Klang was the worse part of the trip...the boat is so bad in condition...i simply dun feel comfortable sitting in it...and bi was soundly asleep all the way back...once we reach i was sooooo relieved...

next up will be updating on the count down in Mont Kiara..stay tuned...