Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Its Not Hard To Be Happy

sleeping habit gone crazy lately...i'll be super energetic around 1am..and every night gotta force myself to sleep only able to sleep...especially last night...

today i'm rather happy...just becoz i paid attention to the small lil things, small lil detail around me where most of the time people will choose to ignore or tend to take it for granted...having frens around who cares and love me...i couldnt thank you guys enough...frens that fetch me here and there..in and out...send me and pick me up from classes, fetch me out for yamcha sessions and to hang out together, even those that offered to send me home, and not to forget those that always cook for me...called up to make sure i'm alright...listen to all my problems and laugh bout my silly jokes and stupid acts...

just these small lil gestures made me feel so happy..coz i know i'm very lucky to have you guys as my frens...

i've forgotten starting from when..i love to watch the sunset...and today..i saw two things that made me very happy...i was on my way for choir's weekly practise..and i saw rainbow...with a beautiful sunset...i saw a beautiful sunset too yesterday...unfortunately i didnt capture these treasured moments with my cam...

it makes me understand that beautiful things still happens...even during the suckiest or hardest times..

came home around 11 something...and had a bowl of fried rice and some home made cantonese dish to welcome me..i felt so lucky...these are the lil things we tend to take for granted...coz its been this way since we were born...and once u lost it..only to feel its importance...

although i never really thank these people...but i wish its never to too late to do so..


THANK YOU...especially to my family...
love you guys...=D

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Holiday Update

only slept at 5.30am this morning...lost the urge to sleep coz i was having series marathon and blog hopped for a bit...only woke up around 2pm just now..haha..luckily didnt get lots of naggings...=D quite bangga la actually...hahaha...


i just realise that i have some pics taken during some of the things i've done during the exam weeks..which is dated around 2 weeks back..so finally get myself to update my blog...

during choir concert...with lala and ling...taken with my nokia3600slide...lousy cam eventhough its 3.2mp..even my sonyericson w810i's 2mp cam produce better pic than this...sigh...still my sony cam the best...but lately i find it lack in response...but i still love it la..dun worry i wont abandon u...



during exam week..basically i have nothing much to do coz within that week..my exams only fell on 2 days..which was monday and thursday...rather free but i had my AMus paper to write...so monday after having my jury...i went back home..later me and ling followed eddy out for lunch...and when we got home...i opened the door to find our house flooded with water....quickly went into the kitchen...and sure enough..someone was filling up the pot of water and left it there when we went out...and ling somemore asked:"wah so wor...so geng didnt off the tab...." sure enough it was her coz i didnt do that...lala was sleeping in her room and yirui wasnt around the house that day...anyhow..i find it rather amusing as i kept laughing all the way...


flooded kitchen...




got some picture for rememberance..haha...ling even tried to bribe me with a meal to ask me to keep it just between the two of us..but which i didnt...i just thought that its very funny...dun hate me la ling..hahaha...dun worry..no one blames u for anything...we just laugh it off like a joke...=)


partially flooded living room...i know thats alot of shoes..but 4 girls in a house..this is considered okay la..of coz..what u see here is not just what we have...coz there are plenty shoes especially mine and yirui..which are kept in our room..hahha..and lucky enough..the water stopped just before reaching the sofa and the piano...ahahah..no damage done...



a pail full of water..from the living room itself..haha..i know the water is dirty which means something else...dont even try judging okay. =)



to make things easier..we used these floor towels to help soak up the water...it works more effectively than the mop....



silly ling..wanna act somemore..looking guilty..but actually we were laughing our ass out while she trying to bribe me..hahah




went clubbing after my finals ended..that day itself..wasnt intended pun...but there i was...




frens of keanwai..(sorry forgotten ur name...), darren, me and ben ley...we were schu mate back in secondary schu...


Ms Eliz's Farewell/Gathering Party.

was held in uni last saturday...which was a reason why i stayed back in cheras..while having some plans made to kick start my hols..Ms. Leung, Ms. Jaz, Ms. Chong and Dr. Lim playing a piece by Dr. Jeff..




Dr. Jeff giving a speech...our new head of Classical department..



Dr. Png (new Head of School of Music) and Dr. Lim played a Concerto..



Mr. Juan Pablo..head of Contemp. department...gave speech while students arranging the instruments..




contemp students performing..



Ms. Sara and Mr. Stephen sang a number...

after the party ended..we left by a flight of stairs which all the lights were then off...but someone was kind enough to switch on the lights on their hp...suddenly i slipped, missed two steps of stairs and fell straight on my knee...ling was shocked as she was holding me hand then...they pulled me up..but i didnt feel any pain after the fall so i thought it was nothing...so yirui send us home...and i cleaned up and all..slowly i felt the pain..i think i sprained my ankle...couldnt walk much later that night..and to make matters worse..i was going to genting the next day..so that night i was still thinking whether should i go genting anot with my sprained ankle as i worry i couldnt walk much...but next day waking up and feel that i dun wanna give a damn to it as i just wanna go for a holiday trip...was careful enough to take good care of myself...by monday without realising..it doesnt hurt anymore..lol...just clumsy as always...i trip and fall, or hit myself onto something every once in a few days...

Eric's Poolside Party on last saturday...

not many ppl reached then so me and rui decided to keep ourselves entertained with the playground there...lol




happily playing the swing...no one to stop us from playing like the park in KLCC...



with birthday boy...




got home and cleaned up...got this from the fall at the party...couldnt remember what i hit...doesnt make any sense to me how i got this...




the swollen part was rather bad...its kinda obvious hor...haha




pictures taken last nite coz i was too bored and had nothing better to do...watching series while having all the things i need next to me...if can i try to avoid moving here and there so much coz my leg hurts with the huge bruise..haha




okay lame shot of me eating bread coz all i had was poridge whole day..although i ate many meals..but i ate little every time...




messy dressing table...too many things...guess i just need more space to keep my things..ahha..wonder how am i gonna keep all my things after i shift back here after graduating...definately need a big shoe rack for all my shoes...think gonna make a few trips to ikea to look for storage ideas for my room soon..



it was 2.23am...sigh...couldnt sleep la...by then i just finished blogging and was about to start my series marathon..lol...which explain why i slept at 5.30 this morning...actually more of forcing myself to sleep...




this is how the bruise look like today when i woke up just now...so "beautiful"....=____=''


next post...Genting trip with ling....
til then..toodles...
muahzmuahz..

LoveHate Relationship

love and hate are total two opposite feelings one could have... yet most of the time i guess many of us just caught in between both feelings no??

lets just start it of with me sleeping late/early at 3am yesterday (it really depends on how u wish to see it really)..and waking up late around 12pm in the afternoon...i was all alone thus no naggings received..and upon waking up and lazily stretched out my hand to look for any one of my hps that lies next to my bed to check the time...i almost struck by horror,learning bout the time it was then...quickly got up and cleaned up..rushed downstairs as i was assigned housechores to be done before my mom comes back from work...

well luckily managed to finish it and also to doing my own laundry before she came home...i was then preparing to cook poridge for myself (mouthful of blisters and ulcers...there's almost nothing to eat without feeling the pain)..then i went on doing some of my weekly assigned housechores..i still remember someone commented on me being so " domesticated"..lol...anyways..suddenly she just came right to me and started to judge me...coz i owned a Bikini...and the one-sided conversation just went on and on til she started bringing back the past...saying that i've changed so much compared to me back then when i was studying in secondary schu....

for people who doesnt know me well enough....back then...til my foundation year in Uni...i was the tshirt-jeans-with-glasses-and-bushy-hair-nerdy girl...i guess u've got the picture..and things started to change...people change right...so i started to know how to dress nicer other than those tshirts and jeans that i used to have..and for some reasons..i wear simple things like shorts and tank tops and jeans and spags to uni on an everyday basis...and when i wear like that out for dinner or something with my family...i was judged and badly criticized as dressing indecently...but i didnt care...coz for some personal reason...(very good ones okay)...so i like fashion...who doesnt like to be dressed in fashionable outfits...as specially girls...somehow kinda adopted the trends and fashions style...but mine wasnt a drastic one or a very obscene one though...i dont dress trashy...to her...shorts are not decent...spags are not decent...

so she went on saying that one needs not to reveal much (by wearing spags and shorts) to be attractive...words like one have to be responsible for all their doings and stuff like that popped out...i swear to u..at that moment i was gonna faint any second...so i was rather unhappy coz as her daughter..she could have understand me.yet i was badly judged by what i wear..so i defended myself by saying that i'm well aware of all my behavior and i take good responsibility of everything i've done...and then she started to have the thinking that people that dress indecently (spags and shorts) are not good people and doesnt have the heart to study....what kinda theory and logic is this??!!!! so i told her right there and then that "its not like i dont study...i study hard and worked hard throughout all my years of studying!!!" as a matter of fact..i've got a satisfying report card to show her...well in my own understanding that i'm currently satisfied with my results..but i believe if i strive harder i'll have a better result...there are still room for improvements...

so i already forgotten how she went on and on and on..and it all started with me having a bikini...its not like i wear it on itself and run around the street or something...sigh...just speechless la...so i just decided to shut up and walk away from the kitchen as i was done with the chores...

and just in case u didnt know...she's been asking me more than a handful of times whether did i dye my hair...and again..just incase everyone didnt know...i dyed it in december last year coz i was being random and wanted a change...but back then she didnt notice at all...how funny..and since i've straightened my hair..every single time i come home..she'll ask me over and over again...its not like i dye my hair blonde or purple or green...plus the colour is not obvious..its only brownish under the sunlight or light...


well maybe people who read this post will think that i'm such a stupid girl...for whinning bout such a stupid thing...it almost make me seems like i hate my family so much..no???well at times i dislike la..(maybe hate when there's something huge happening...) but i still love them no matter what...of coz there are times that i actually enjoy spending time with my family..sometimes they can be so funny and nice...and totally open-minded at a time...and sometimes..they're just so....sigh..dunno how to describe..but i guess u'll understand what i wanna say...guess this is why they're my family...my parents..


people change...in fact all the time...so if ur comparing this 21yearold hueyhsiang with a 15yearold hueyhsiang...i'm sure there are alot of differences...if there arent..wouldnt it be scary since i havent changed much and still moving in the same pace??not improving or growing to be an adult??? sometimes i just wish u could see what i've gone thru...just like watching a movie..then u'll understand what have changed me to who i am today...i'm embracing the changes in my life..and i'm looking forward to changes..coz i dont want to live a life thats so predictable..just like how anyone could imagine/think of...finish uni...start working...and have a stable pay and get married and have kids..and die...i want to live my life to the fullest coz i dont wanna be looking back one day in future and start to think bout all the possibilities and the "what-ifs"..i dun wanna regret...but i guess u guys just couldnt understand...no matter what i still love you all...=)

i know some of my doings are not entirely right..but in the process of learning and changing..mistakes are unavoidable and i'm still learning bout myself and my life...to someone who cares...dont give up on me just yet...coz i still need u your reassurance and guidance...=)

i was a pretty much black-an-white type of person...as there's only two things to a situation..right and wrong...black and white..true and false...

but right now..i found out that i've been living and surviving very much in the Grey Area...in the middle of both...a mixture of both...there's always different perspective to a matter...it depends on how one choose to see it..and going thru and learning all these..i've learned to observe and not judge...its so tiring to be judgemental over someone, something...and its also very tiring to be judged..coz u care how people see you..how people will think of ur doings and what kinda impression your giving people who doesnt know you...so subconsciously u'll try to live up to people's expectations..be it reasonable or totally demanding or illogical ones...


after all my stupid rantings...i just wanna say that..i wished to be myself...i wanna be myself...and not how people want me to be...but its a hard goal to achieve, really.. and dont judge...there's always a reason for every doings...you dont know simply becoz u choose to ignore it, or it doesnt matter to you so you dont need to know..so no matter what...its not for u to judge...coz afterall..who are you to judge???

i've learnt so much bout life and people relations in these 5 months' time...thank you for making me change and giving me this chance..although u've hurt me so much....

Saturday, April 25, 2009

U Got Me Thinking...

just got back from fren's birthday party...after cleaning up and washing up the wet clothes..haha..just in case ur wondering why the wet clothes...coz it was a poolside party...and the unavoidable-being throw-into-the-pool- scenes...thats why its a poolside party...=)


wanna wish u..ERIC TEH....


HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY....although my wishes came late..but still better than never right...=D hahaha...hope u'll have a great year ahead..





the weather lately have been nothing but crazy...uber hot today...and the raining on the next....totally unpredictable..just like PMS..lol..what a way of describing it...guess its a warning sigh of global warming??end of the world??? sigh...




after my tempura bento set in genting..have a few blisters and ulcers in my mouth...and no matter what i eat it just hurts like shyt every single time...even when i'm not eatting too...sore throat coming soon too..coz i can feel uncomfortable throat d...sigh...hate to be sick...especially headaches,stomachaches, and sore throat...T__________T



i just dunno what is so wrong with me...am i born with a nerve lesser than other ordinary human being..coz i'm just so clumsy and accident-prone...every few days i'll just hurt myself...no exceptions...and just now after being "threw" into the pool..i walked back to my seat...i WALKED...and i just slipped and fell while walking on a flat ground....=_____=" didnt know how i fell..but now there's a huge blueblack bruise on my thigh...hahaha....really got myself speechless..hahaha...




anyways...while i was sitting there earlier on...kinda thinking bout my plans for my 21st birthday...my very 1st time wanna have a celebration...but i dunno what kinda celebration i want...still thinking...sigh...anyone with any suggestions or thoughts...just drop me a comment yea...=)






kayz gotta go spend time with my darling series...hahaha...

til then...toodles...

muahzmuahz...=)

Friday, April 17, 2009

Freedom...Merdeka!!!!

Just came back from clubbing session...haha..had so much fun relaxing myself...taking a break from all the study stress...loving my life so much right now...=D
updates from weeks ago....

MDG party @ Mist Club-Bangsar.

with lala...thank you so much for the pass...=)


one of the finalist of MDG...




with Fiqa....she's gorgeous and tall!!!











blur blur victor...






us three at the event...thank you nuffnang and angela for the passes..






lala look so cute in this pic..haha



with vic.





MOS with frens 2 weeks ago...

with shernnin and qq...






eating mango in the car while waiting for xiaotian...haha



went SS15's tong shui shop for dinner...



at the Deq in MOS...waiting..lol..super dulan face of mine..ahhaha



with shern nin









free drinks for ladies...yum!!!!






with piaowey...



group pic...


the last song we danced to before leaving-Jai Ho from Slumdog Millionaire...everyone gone crazy with that song..hahaha



well i was random on tagging along with my fren to go to some event @ Bali at sunway pyramid..supposed to go for movies after he meet up with his frens...but then his frens changed plans and headed for MOS...at last we were at MOS....much better music than before...hahaha
kayz...til the next update...
muahzmuahz...
loves to all...