Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Dilemma

why do i find myself constantly fighting myself???
why am i always in dilemmas regarding trust issues??
izit really my fault for not trusting him??
izit coz he didnt give me the confidence to trust him??
am i living in denial??to the fact that knowing that he could lie so well but i still choose to believe in him all these while while a part of me knows that it might be fake??
am i really thinking too much??
am i over reacting towards matter like these??
am i willing to let go if things turns out to be really bad even from the begining??
izit much better being off alone??
why do i have so many issues??


why......

11 comments:

Unknown said...

Don't think so much k? Since you've chosen him and it's your will to continue trusting him. But whatever happened, do know that you still have us...your housemates.....We love you and we will always be there for you~!!! Do your best and let God do the rest k? Love you....muax!!

Clarrise HueyHsiang said...

housemates are not forever...i'll be shifting away end of next year d...
u know i have never been untruthful to him..never once... but he kept doing things without thinking how would i feel if i was to find out....
i know la everyone likes to be adore by more than a person...but he knows no bounderies....hati tawar d...aih

Unknown said...

I guess he thinks that you're to innocent and will trust whatever he says and that is why he never worry letting u know...coz he'll surely explain to u and u will trust him....right? haiz...

Lingz said...

lala.. 's words were right. ya. we will leave .. n stay not forever.. but don forget.. u stil got ur wat wat wat holder.atcl.. pc.. voilin piano .. even voice.. u look pretty. don think no one will want u .. even u so u can live on ur own.. .........................but once u choose to belive from begining.. u just hav to do so..!!! until the end of the ways.!!! be tough.!!!


lov u mummy.!!

Unknown said...

Yeah!!! We love you....now and forever~!!!

逋。梦 said...

i dont know the whole things in details...but...i can understand ur feeling.
try to overcome...most of the time i ignore the pain, and do many other things...to not to think too much or maybe u think the part he win ur trust...
take care!

Clarrise HueyHsiang said...

thans for all the comments u guys left me...but i think i've settle matters for now...let's just hope that everything will goes well from now on...thank you lala, ling and a new blogger..de novo..

Unknown said...

Glad that you manage to over come your problems....I sincerely hope that those bad things won't happen again~!! =) MUAX!!

Lingz said...

mummmy .. calendar out dy lor.. 2nd open sch..mhmhm. so early.!!! upated dy lor.. so u can know wats going next whole year.. when holidays all those.!!

逋。梦 said...

aduh, im shern nin here..haha...
if a relationship no trouble to deal with then will be sien also :P

Clarrise HueyHsiang said...

oh shern nin...didnt say it was u also...should have told me earlier mah...btw how are those cme pieces going??