Dead

so should i just officiall announce that this blog is so dead that i bet no one stepped into this site for some time??

Just call me plain lazy..i no longer find the motivation to camwhore or to take picture even whenever i go out, just like i how i used to be...maybe i dont find any reason to take pics anymore..and even if i did..the amount of photo is what i can describe as...SAD...so thats why i dun even bother to post it up here..and just leave them to rot in my cam, in my handbag..hahaha..gosh i'm such a meanie...

my wisdom tooth is hurting again since days ago..shyt..everytime when i'm up to something important it'll start to hurt..just like months ago when i was bout to leave for Korea for performance..it got so bad that it swollen like shyt and i couldnt even speak properly, up til the extend that i couldnt even close my mouth...and now i'm like a week away from my competition and here comes the pain..i'm not too worried bout the pain..just the swelling part..talking bout the PERFECT TIMING...=__="

hmmm...talking bout competition, dunno what am i gonna do with my hair..its at a state that its not too long nor too short..sigh...i miss my hair...=( am gonna keep it long again..but dunno how many gazillion years it'll take...+_____+

hmmm everything's been great this year..i love this year..i've accomplished much...it has been very interesting..lotsa happened..except the fact that i'm uber broke...hahahah...well not that i've been spending like my dad prints money...no..i just started to realise that the living standards in KL is so high..and i could hardly survive on my monthly allowance..lets just say next year will be a nightmare.i dunno how am i gonna make it seriously..not that my dad does not give me the money...he does..in fact..he said i could ask for more when i dun have enough..and so that was what i did when i was desperately in need of money to survive..mana tahu..kena lecture..then after that..he said if not enough let him know again..how irony??.well..most of the money i took from him i spend on paying my vocal and violin lessons, and now..for the accompanist..so in the end there's barely much left for my own spending lo to be honest..and thanks to who that i'm in such state???? i will not say...but god knows, my dad knows, she knows and i know...

every now and then i cant help but keep wondering..how can i survive in the coming next year??sigh...

hmmm shall i start blogging again??feeling abit lazy though...ahahha..i'll try my best la...fully utilize my camera...hahhaha...

okay..will update soon
ciaoz

Pamper

Its been kinda long since i had such a good time...initially no plans for the night...only plan was to rehears with fren for an upcoming concert next week...then stay at home for more series n then call it a night...ever since last month when i'm starting to feel the pinch of running outta cash...didnt really wanna go out at all...prefered to stay at home most of the time coz thats the only way to ensure that i wont spend...

well you know..plans that came up suddenly at last minute..normally would bring some fun into my everyday life...so went out to setapak to teman my dear to get back his uncle's guitar from an old fren of his..then went over to Library in Cineleisure..hanged out with some frens...its been kinda long since i had such a great time drinking and hanging out with frens...and tonight is the night...after that i felt like dancing..so dear texted yirui who's at Maison every thursday..that we'll be going over to join her there...

again we were there...well...i had my part of fun..hopefully i did not neglected my bf..lolz...came back to cheras again for supper..as expected la...dear where can be full after eattin poridge without any proper meat in his meal...hahahha..in fact he had supper TWICE...lolz...

my hair is getting abit better...not so sad d la...some said i look better with this hairstyle..but not much of a difference also actually..ahhaha...well..i dunno la..but am happy that its getting better day by day...gonna nourish it with plenty of conditioner...hahjahahhaha...


okay...i had my part of fun and its gonna last for some time before i feel the need to inject more into my life...time to focus on what i need to do now..upcoming concert in Bukit Jalil Golf Club..and most important of all before the arrival of 2010....VOCAL COMPETITION (FINALS) in Johore...at the same time..shall keep on practising for my Graduation Recital next year...kinda worried now at the state that i'm going...

its already the ending of my 1st week of semester break...somehow i dun feel like i'm having any holidays..lolz...well coz to start with..i wasnt really that busy with during the semester...or was i busy but i'm already so used to it i dun feel it anymore?ahaha...and even with the semester break..i still got classes to attend and stuff...Tuesday..weekly Dithyrambic practise..will be more intense as we have upcoming concerts..Melacca in end of this month and our Debut in MPO(that is if u dunno..we're singing with the organist at Dewan Philharmonic, KLCC) in December...gotta rush back to KL straight from Johore after the Vocal Competition ended...Wednesday got Vocal lesson...Thursday got major lessons in Uni, Friday night gotta go Urbanattic for JazzPetrol, Saturday gotta teach in Midvalley and Violin lessons...

so as u can see..i'm still busy...and even after the vocal competitions and all the concerts, xmas carolling's coming up next..hahaha...well...am glad that i have so many things to do..at least i wont be wasting much of my time..loitering at home without doing anything usefull..ahaha...

i'm begining to enjoy my life, to love my life being a musician and a part time singer..(am i qualified to call myself that??lolz)...never regreted of choosing this path in my life..hope everything will be better and better..

of coz..there's one thing thats bothering me right now..hopefully it wont be something that i need to worry..and everything will go well for me for now and in future...

kayz...thats the short update..i know its been kinda long since i updated much bout myself and stuff..busy and getting lazy d...

til the next update..
ciaoz..

Heart Broken

everytime i touch my hair, or even look into the mirror..i feel terribly sorry for myself..for the decisiont that i've made...never expected that it would cause so much harm to me...and the outcome...totally unexpected...and i guess there's nothing i can do but to wait for time to pass to let it heal...


yea i'm heart broken...not coz i fought with my bf or what...hahaha..say til so dramatic...cheh...lolz...

went to did my hair..never expected my hair to so damaged all these while..and just in two days' time i've permed and straightened my hair twice each...sigh...now...nothing can be done.i'm suffereing from hair crisis 1st time in my life...i guess this really teach me lesson...cheap stuff doesnt mean its good...all these while my hair havent been treated correctly, nicely..hence the accumulated damages...

since i got back..i tied my hair in a ponytail coz its in a terrible state..dry, damaged...almost broom-like...hopefully after washing 2mr it'll be better..dead worries now...

aih...i need some miracle...