Confused

just a few simple sentenses..i've been thinking hard..real hard..i wonder..whats on the top of my priority list in my life??i'm already nearing 20 years of age..and i know i shouldnt be wasting more time on stupid things..things that dont even worth me putting my time and my effort on..i havent been really honest with myself all these time..keep making myself to believe that love is everything...but now i realise..its not..its just a mere feeling..yea love is blind..but can love feed u and give u money??sad to say they cant..u cant just survive on love..like i said..its just a feeling..when u have it,u felt like u have everything u ever needed in the world...but when u lose it,ur left with nothing...nothing at all..just EMPTINESS...unlike friendships..if u really lucky to find a few sincere frens..just a few will do..they will be there for u whenever u need them.and best thing of all..no matter what an enemy u both were..as time passes..one day u both meet up..eventually u both will be frens again..thinking of what happened few years back were so childish and foolish...in the end..no matter what happened u will still have a bunch of frens that will stick closely to u thru the good and hard times..MONEY...i'm sick of feeling poor..being asked to spend wisely and all...its really sad to say that whenever i go shopping i see things i really adore..but when i take a look at the pricetag..i just put the clothes back on to its place,take another good look of it and just walk of like that...MONEY...just a piece of paper with a value..but it can make a hell lot of a difference to a person..and i can say that...with lots of money i'll definately be much more happier...if i could trade a caring but not so rich family with a rich but cold hearted family...i would...i seriously would..coz everything i ever wanted comes with a great price..and i need lots of money to do and get what i wanted...i keep thinking..just to realise that everything i do now..in the end also comes into contact with MONEY..i need to study hard in order to earn good money in future...and with money i can live the way i want...u see...all in all..in the end it all sums up to money..now u see..how important money is...
a person who's trully disappointed from inside out..wont rely on things that are not reliable...empty promises...i rather rely on myself..get a good education can earn big money..yea i'm materialistic..i dare to admit that coz thats what my final aim is...thats what my life is all about...
after all i've said..i'm still really confuse..maybe everything is equally important...everything is worthless when u dont have money and money is worthless when u dont have a drive in ur life like love,frenship and all...i guess i just came back to the starting point..