Friday, April 27, 2007

my life,my way...

Then...Now...
yesterday i was thinking about my past...my secondary schu life with all my friends there..what kinda person i was then..did i change much from last time??i was this naive person...always think that what i see is the fact,the truth..i didnt know how to see a person then..how to see if they are for keep..or people that will use me for their own benefits...back then so many unhappy things happened..betrayal and all sort bout friendships..relationships..i was this stupid girl..just looking at matters as wide as my eyes can see...i dont mix around with people much..and until now..if u so happened to ask one of my schoolmate from my same year..ask them whether they know bout hueyhsiang..i bet they dont even know i exist in the first place...
my first ex...i'm still wondering now whether he likes me anot when i was with him...some mean girls were talking bad bout me then..saying that i go towards the guy 1st and all..saying that the guy be with me coz he pity me..he used to take money from me..back then..i was very careful with my money..i never spend much..i didnt know how to dress up myself...what my mom said suits me then i'll wear..so being the 1st bf then..i treated him well..he asked money from me everday..so called "borrow"..everyday one or two bucks..after half a year...we broke up...i cried that time..but now that i thought of it..he dont worth even one of my tears...but after all these years..me still managed to be friends again...that time i had a very good friend..a friend which a treasure alot...a friend which understands me...due to some missunderstanding..coz someone talked bad behind the both of us...make fire out of thin air..until now..we still keep distance between each other..pretend that we dunno each other..
in my form 3 year..i was with this guy til form 5...he showered me with lots of expensive presents..handphones,soft toys,diamond necklace,silver anklet and other more...i was blinded by his sweet words and expensive present...he tried to control me but of coz i didnt know..sometimes he was very unreasonable..his parents didnt like him being with me..they even followed us when we were out with our friends in pyramid...my family doesnt allow me to have bf until now...which all of these i had to hide from my parents..it was really hard..he called every now and then..even when i wasnt able to talk on the phone...somehow my feelings towards him changed at the end of form 4..i asked for break up but he refused...things started to get out of our hands and it involved his family and family friends...he threatened to tell my parenst bout us...all that stuff la(another guy came in that time to help me out..u know la when this thing happens u will fall for him easily rite..he seems to be the best at that time..)..i was afraid that time..so i tried to give him a chance instead..he brought me out to buy new handphone for me..i was scared that he might call up to my parents to tell them bout me having bf and all...so it lasted for one more month...everything got from bad to worse..everything happened..stalking,threathening...my friend's mother..which her family was very close with that guy's family..counselling me..asked me what happened and all..they were ery helpful..which til now i'm very thankful to them...my friend's mom asked me to return everything he gave me..and asked me to take back everything i gave him..so that ended that way...every now and then my current bf still hears stuff that he lied about to people..some bad things that i dont wish to mention here..
well..my 3rd bf..the one that helped me n was there for me when bad things happened..well..that didnt worked out too..we were on and off for like 3-4 times and we only lasted for 3 months...like he said.."no strings attached"...nothing much to say bout him..but he's indeed a goof friend...
i was single for like 2 weeks..lolz..i myself just knew that not long ago...i changed tuition centre coz my back-then-best friend said that centre was good..had a very good chemistry teacher from sunway college..there..i met my current bf..presenting MR PATRICK ONG!!!!! lolz...i was very quiet during tuition classes..and only mixed around with the girls..MR PATRICK ONG always sits behind me during account classes..he kept asking me questions..i just simply throw a few words and pointing here and there on the book..then without another word i'd turned bac to my book and start doing my work..lolz..until we worked together for a project for the family day event held by the centre..had to open a booth whether selling foods or game stall..went to his house a few times(which was only opposite of my back-then-best-fren's house)..that was when it all started...haha..at first i just thought giving him a shot..see whether things works out well or not..we are from two different worlds...i'm the study type while he's more to the playing type..he was then "famous".the playboy in the area.(i'm his 40th..and still counting.lol)..the 1st few months we kept querreling..i also dunno why..but in the end we managed to work things out together..and until now..i love him so much that not as much as i love myself...haha.lucky me..that he tamed down..he stopped saying bad words soo often when i told him that i dun like..we've been through alot..and he kept me worrying bout his safety when he drive around without license..and tried to drift..hahaha..although he didnt shower as many or as expensive gift like how my 2nd ex did..but the taught me alot of things..he showered me with unconditioned love..no limit..he taught me to see people and matters in different directions..he studied so hard for spm coz i wanted him to study and try his best...there were so many things happened for us..when i got robbed last month..he rushed to cheras from shah alam in just five minutes..he was with me when i needed him the most..he asked people to look out for me everywhere no matter where am i..in subang or in cheras...he's the best...we went to genting so many times..our lives together has been very interesting....he brought me to many new places..brought me to try delicious foods...make me watch movies which he said its nice..and of coz its nice la..haha..he taught me alot of new things..new experience..and now we both are working very hard for our future and i do hope that everything will turn out like how we want it to be...or even better...he's someone that cant be describe fully with words..we share the same favourite food..sushi,pizza..the favourite sweet..favourite ice cream flavour..we even share the same habit..haha...he always fetch me out when i wants to go out...damn paiseh the valentine's gift for this year i'm supposed to do cross stitch for him...til now still got 15% of it undone yet...sorry aa bi..haha but dun worry.. i will be able to give u during our 2nd year anniversary i promise...muakzs!!!!love of love and kisses to u!!!!
now let me introduce MR PATRICK ONG to u thru pics:


his ride and buddy(u might see this car before in subang and sunway area mostly)


love this photo sticker.one of the best that we've taken..


mr patrick "fatt hau".haha..he is very supportive..being there at every one of my concert(except for the latest one due to wrong info)


this is mr patrick...haha..i do admit that he likes to take pics of himself..haha


after the concert at mcd..


@genting with teamcity for the 2nd time..didnt need to rush home that time coz i was staying over at his place.lolz..


posers we are!!!haha


he was having an affair with the statue bear!!!!just rite infront of me..how dare he....=!


henna my bi did for me de..


can see genting ler...really wan..just from my cheras's house's window...


nite view..it was really pretty..that nite i kept quiet and think back alot bout my my past..of the things happened in the house that time...the nite view was really pretty..(pic courtesy from rui)

MY RECENT FAVOURITE STUFF(WISH LIST=p)


i just love those open toes pumps..they are so classy and elegant!!!love this!!!!but still wondering which one should i get...hmmm...


this is also one of my favourite!!!or maybe i should get this..wat do u think???give me some comments ler.....


love this too!!!but i think it doesnt suits my wardrobe..but i like the design..so classsy...too bad my mom doesnt want such high highheels...=(


i love wedges too!!!!bi said i'm addicted to shoes..am i aaa?????u should see the condo in cheras..the shoe rack outside full with shoes..inside the house one corner also full of shoes..rui said we are really very good at buying shoes..haha


love this number...especially its in white..i love white!!i love white roses too..haha...its a hint..its a hint!!!!


i love short pants nowadays..coz staying quite a distance away from college means i have to walk to coll everyday..so wearing pants makes it easier for me...

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