Thoughts and emotions

drifting away
from everything
friends, people whom we just know thru other frens but never really had the chance to know them yet
thoughts, million of thoughts
all the things that happened,might happened, and wish to happen
sometimes u might wonder
if i didnt walk down this path
how would i ended up now?
if i didnt made this choice then
how would i live now?
live's full of unpreditable stuff
just as the moment u never think it will happen
it happens...
choices are to be made,
paths to be choose
to believe would give us a better life, if not other wise...

i have plenty in my mind
all that shyt that happened
still raw and fresh in my heart and my mind
sad to say that i still had the fears u left of me
u had the choice but u choosed to hurt me
i didnt blame u
as that was what i deserved
but anyhow
just to let u know...
things have changed, but the wounds are still fresh

every now and then
i heard death and unhappy things
as we starting to grow older
shyt happens
this is the way of life
which adults are tyring to deny at times
which also teens and kids are all still naive bout all that
nothing is as easy as before
everyone has a motive behind every action,
everything happens for a reason
and that, is just the way of life...

thoughts,
sometimes just make us so confuse
there are so many things i want to do with u
spend my time with u,
do everything i can with u,
becoz,
u might not know
whats going to happen the next minute

humans,
are all very clever beings
i was once betrayed,
again and again,
i see things differently,
i deal with matters differently,
i treat people differently...
why do we still killing and hurting each other,
when all with could do is
just make each other's live better??

at times like this,
i feel like i'm sick of everything,
ready to give up on everything,
couldnt care less bout anything...
but when i'm okay,
i feel like everything's is so.....
i dunno how to say....
maybe at this point
i'm wordless....

thousands emotions and thoughts are running thru my mind and soul
u might not believe it,
but its true
there are so many things to do
but so little time,money and chance
all in all..
plenty of obstacle
i just wish that i could see things
just as simple as i want them to be...

and all that i've said,
its just the way of life....

Holiday post

i wouldnt say that this is the best holiday...kinda sux coz i'm stuck at home without much entertainment except for some hongkong dramas...aih...no game nothing...so last sunday went out to pyramid with my family coz needed to get something...mana tahu the lady pissed me off so i just decided to walk off...so i was damn frustrated and angry...i walked around pyramid without knowing where to go...didnt had the mood to go shopping..so i kept walking and walking and walking..i past by MPH so i decided to go in and hang out to read some book and mags...so while i was there i sms-ed rui and bi...asked rui whether she free to come pyramid at that time..but she told me she got some family dinner later on that she had to attend...but i didnt wanted bi to come all the way to teman me and risk being seen by my parents...so i was alone in MPH..after done reading mags i went over to the cook book section...one of my favourite book section..i've always wanted to buy cook books and learn nice recipes so i could make decent meals for bi,rather than just soup noodle and pasta...while browsing thru the various cook books, i suddenly looked up and saw bi standing beside me...was really surprised and happy to see him there...finally something good happen to me...so we hang around there for awhile as my dad too was in MPH that time...after few minutes,bi said my dad not around d..then we went to Toycity to see remote control cars, he teman me to F.O.S to see shirt..went back to MPH again..then i had to go already...miss going out with him...and it was rather fun coz we needed to kinda avoid my parents..hahaha...after that i went home...
normally during holidays i would have lunch with my dad unless i got other plans to go out somewhere...so monday we had mamak for lunch..as usual i ordered my teh o ais limau and bihun goreng for a change since the only goreng dish i eat there is maggi goreng...when they served me my food..i was eatting happily coz i missed this mamak's goreng goreng dishes...it has the best maggi goreng i've ever tasted in my life...so as i was eating...i saw one dead baby cockroach in my bihun goreng..well i just took it out and used the limau skin to covered it since its so disgusting and i didnt want it to disturb my appetite..so i just continue eating anyways..but now i kept twisting and turning almost the whole plate of noodle upside down inside out...u might think that y i didnt make a scene or just stop eating or somethin like that..well..i just started eating and it would be quite wasteful if i dun eat it..2ndly this is the only mamak which serve my fav maggi goreng just the way i want it to be and its darn cheap ok...3rdly i've been dining at this mamak for a long long time...so i thought i didnt want to destroy its business...i've tried to eat...but somehow i keep thinking bout the dead roach and i freaked myself out..so i just push it aside and my dad asked me how come i couldnt finish it..i just told him that i found a dead roach inside..he went to ask the boss to come take alook...he saw it..and he went speechless..just stoned there for few minutes...thats y i dun wanna see this kinda thing happen..maybe i'm too kind hearted...lolz...so the boss gave us a free meal...anyhow..i still went back there to dine..this time was with my mom after her yoga class on tuesday nite...this time i didnt dare to order goreng stuff anymore..i just ordered my tosai...i couldnt help tossing the gravy around to check whether it has roacches in it..aih..maybe i should just stop going there for awhile..i know i'm going to miss my maggo goreng..aih...

tuesday after having lunch with my dad and my dad left for work, i quickly start cooking pasta for bi coz i've promised to cook him lunch that day since he's not having much proper meals lately...well not to say what i cook is considered as proper meal la..dun be fooled ok coz i cooked those instant pasta for him where u just pour in the packet of pasta,add some milk and water and cook it...lolz..well at least bi loves it...lolz..so went over to his place and watched tv..then went out to SRIKL to fetch his sis from schu coz his grandpa needed to go for medical check up...

super crowded with cars..and mind u..all big cars like Alphard, estima and all..rich people.....the thing i dun understand is y cant they car pool...most of the big cars came only to fetch one kid...siao rite...what to do..they're rich....


in the car waiting nothing to do...

after dinner with mom, went to a small jusco in KK to buy bread...so ngam got sales and discounts..so i bought plenty of Rocky/Pocky!!!!..its Rocky/Pocky craze!!!!!!


nothing much to do at home..aih...2mr going to meet up with bi and he's bringing me to go visit his dad in the hospital...fell down at some mamak after attending a fren's son's funeral...broke his ankle...so now is in hospital..hope he'll recover soon....

Party people!!!!!!

updates again peeps....thursday morning woke up in the afternoon...bi supposed to come find me once he woke up..but he had stuff to do so we only met up later in the afternoon...ate the noodles cooked by yikling..then off we went to midvalley again...this time to fetch yikling and thiery to midvalley and rui wanna buy concealer...so off we went...we also bought lingeries from La Senza...spend 200plus there..lolz..but i was happy..=)..then buying stuff then we went home...started to pack my stuff coz i'm having holiday now...so got lots to pack before the next day where i will go over to bi's place before he send me home on saturday...he hate to wait for me to pack and i had millions to pack..so i better start early..after packing i practised my vocal as i'll be having class at 6.30pm..its been 2 weeks back since i last practise..excuses are no time,lazy and too stressed out from exams...lolz...so after my class..went back to wake bi up and we went all the way to damansara for dinner at some thai restaurant/mamak...it seems that the Nasi Goreng Suria there quite nice..so bi purposedly took me there to eat...but it turned out that it wasnt that good afterall...hahaha..after makan went back cheras again..got ready for clubbing!! while waiting for rui to come back from cheer and fetch jon over...when he reached cheras only to realise that he forgot to bring his shoes...so had to go back to sunway again..hahaha..okay pictures time...

love this pic..my hair brown brown d..happy..=)


on the way to Midvalley


clubbing pics....

on the way to sunway..bi driving....

i love this CJ7 toy!!!it look so real just like the one in the movie...

cute aint it???hahahaa

reached heritage row...havent decided which club to go yet..but jon needed to change and we needed toilet break..so we walked over to Imperial Hotel...

camwhore...

lala did my eye make up..thanx lala!!!!muakzs...

with bi at the lobby


finally decided to go to maison..again!!!!!

my glass...

i D.I.Y.-ed my heels...hehehe

manicure did by rui and lala that afternoon

our table...didnt had a good table that nite..we were seated rite next to the ladies express lane entrance...and above us is a huge speaker blasting music nonstop....

i'm more than half way gone ad..lolz

see...hahahaa

this two kept taking pics when i went dancing..and thanx jon for safe guarding my belongings for me...hehehe

going....

going...but still can adjust my heels..

totally gone!!!!!

vomitted so many times..on the floor,on the roadside,in the ice bucket...lolz...and i cried...i didnt really know why.guess i was too sad....then bi had to carry me to the car...all the way back i burried my face in a plastic bag...vomitted like hell...i feel sick now if i'm to see any kind of alcohol or at least smell or it...wont clubbing anymore....at least for a few months..and unless i really have to go...reached back home...when i was getting out of rui's car..my vomit kena her car seat...so so so sorry bout that..aih...then bi carried me up to condo and washed me up...lala dried my hair for me..thanx lala!!!!and sorry for disturbing u from ur sleep lingling...hehehehe

lala drying my hair for me...i siao ad that time..

lolz....



holiday now..stuck at home...but will be going to ipoh next next monday...hehee...

heavy update

this post gonna start off with what happened last weekend...i was with bi..made up the weekend to him by spending more time with him...so on sunday evening...met up with bi's fren, wai and his gf, Carine, went to suabng parade to see some car modification event/competition...we also had dinner together at Sakae Sushi in parade..then we went over to Pyramid for movies..supposedly to watch 'Evolusi KL Drift'..but heard from some other teams that the review for that show isnt that good..said that the camera view kept shaking and all..so in the end we watched 'L Changed The World'..so after buying tickets..we still left with almost and hour before our show starts..so we walked around..and i went to buy ribbons for D.I.Y.-ing my heels...then we past by this shop that sells all sorts of tid bits..so we went in and have a look..i was so happy seeing all kinds of tid bits there..they even have one partitioned area to store the dried sotongs..so after choosing our stuff we went to pay..it was so damn shocking to see the final price that i had to pay...well for ur info..i only bought one packet of gummy bears and a packet of sour plum thingy..and it costs me RM18.20!!!!!!! tell me if this is not shocking to you...

the price i paid for the gummy bears...u might think that its quite big packet...wait til u see...


its just this small packet ok...and its freaking expensive lo!!!! i rather buy from Famous Amos...say "NO" to this shop!!!!!


sour plum thingy...kinda pricey also lo..aih...swear that i will never go near that shop anymore!!!!black-listed that shop ad lor...

and i also bought this movie that i've always wanted to watch...indon movie

so bi fetched me back to cheras on monday nite as i had my last paper the next morning..yirui only came back before the exams starts coz she needed the car for our clubbing session which i will update in my next post...these few nites she had cheer practises coz next monday got performance for the Olympics Torch Relay Run thingy..so i teman her go cheer since i had nothing better to do and i didnt want to stay at home alone and do nothing...after practise we went to fetch jon for yamcha at SS15 Station One...bi only brought us there then cabut to meet his TS frens for photo shooting session in Pyramid carpark...

angry face...but thats how i look like normally...

jon and rui...

ng kam yuen..so i camwhore myself..lolz

keep giving me those stupid faces lo he....

dun wan to pose properly thats y like that la...

these few days i slept super late coz last last week i started off sleeping late coz needed to study for my history paper..then i got stuck with the odd sleeping time til now...woke up super late like in the afternoon...so woke up,washed my clothes and all..by the time we wanted to go out for lunch it started to rain..so we made up our mind to have lunch at Leisure Mall coz didnt want to get wet under the rain..haha..we had Tepanyaki for lunch...got offer lo..so quite worth it as we were both damn full after eating..then went over to Watson to look for bi's hair wax..then suddenly itchy hand we decided to dye our hair again since we got nothing to do and wanted to get our hair a lighter shade of colour...so this time we bought Revlon...the first time i dyed my hair was using Loreal's...the colour wasnt obvious on my hair...and it stained up my shirt..Revlon is so much better lo..not smelly during the dye-ing process,the after dye conditioner is not oily compared to Loreal's...and when rui dyed my hair..she kena abit on my pants...but lucky to say that it didnt stain much on my pants lo...i just soaked it inside soap water..and i didnt scrub it..after washing..the stain is almost 95% gone!!!!and the good thing is..this colourant works for me and my hair..can see got difference ad lo after dye-ing...say "YES" to Revlon!!!!ahahahah...after washing up and all..it was time to go back to sunway for her cheer practise...this time yikling tagged along too..so i wont stone there..hahahaha..

in BB Gym

rui warming up..lolz

this is yingming..tou goong jian liao(in mandarin)!!!

half way thru bi came to find us and fetch us to SS15 coz we got nothing to do at the gym...bi was there for some meeting with TS and SG..this time at the tong shui shop opposite Station One...quite nice lo the tong shui there..i like it..hahaha

fooling around

see la this bi...put his leg on the stool pulak...tsk tsk tsk..hahaha

stupid face for the cam..haha

bi ordered some hotdog sandwich and this prawn tofu...

my tong shui...wheat cream..(mak chok in Cantonese)

ling's 3-bean tong shui

less than 5 minutes..food all gone...

after bi done eating..he went back to his fren's table for meeting and yamcha...left and ling there chatting and all...after done eatin we decided to go back find rui again coz got nothing to do..so i took bi's car back to sunway....

damn scary lor drive his car...scared road block,scared jpj, scared kena bodykit....but i didnt kena la..coz i'm a careful driver...lolz


thumbs-up from ling..haha


after rui's cheer, we drove back to SS15 the tong shui shop again for dinner..

she finished up her food damn fast that nite coz she was damn hungry...just keept eating and eating..

my french toast...ling managed to get a pic from it before i finished it..

ling's egg sandwich, her bak goh fu chuk yi mai, and my hak loh mai...love it!!!

bi eat again...

after makan we went back to cheras...

reached back condo safely...

perfect parking...