Chiplak updates...

as the title says..Chiplack updates..one post fill with many many short updates of all the back-logged pictures and events..hahaha...decided to update my blog for good coz i'm seriously bored here..having totally nothing to do...hahahha

okay this first update is on this year's mooncake festivals..my family and uncles and grandparents had dinner in a restaurant somewhere near Sri Petaling..i dunno whats that place call..but i can show u directions to it..hahaha

some egg dish...with chinese wine i think..abit weird..


stir-fry vege...


pumpkin sauce poultry..this is really good

and huge ass prawns...damn fresh lo..and its cooked then and there on our table..by pouring chinese wine onto it.how it is cooked is by placing lots of heated stones under the prawns in the pot..and once u pour in the wine..u must quickly cover the pot with its lid and there will be lots of asap coming out from the pot..and few minutes later the prawn is ready to be served..=) damn nice this dish...

steamed fish with tauchu

Tauhu...

another dish by my bro..prawns shell..hahahaha...


we then went back to grandma's house for prayings..

uncle's dog whos now staying with my grandparents..its name is Shorty..coz he's short..hahahaha

KL jalan Alor's famous beef balls noodles..reminded me of dear's gigging days for the past two months...

my last Choir Concert..muahahhaa..with sopranos..

the crazy four sistas..hahaha..which fathered by Terrence..ahahaha..let me tell you who's the eldest..the tiniest is the eldest of us four...muahahahahhaa...

Kenry and i

one of our many performing days...our performance in UM...going for dinner after performance..

good times..=)


comin up are a series of photos taken during dear and his frens' band competition in Hartamas

Eekee who's tipsy after having calsberg...

me, Emma and Maggie

the "ki siao" boyfren and i..hahahha

Halloween 2009

last minute plan..we are the normal couple.

the halloween couple..hahahaha..imagine bumpin into them right there at pavillion then..i was surprised to see them in makeups..haha..only both of them dressed up for halloween in the entire mall...i kid you not..=D

us again

looked so fine-dining kan??hahahaha...some pumpkin salad..nice...oh btw this restaurant is located at the ground floor of pavillion..crystal jade something..hahaha..next to a mexican restaurant la..


Shopping trip to 1U

we had late lunch at Italiannese..my first time there...did u know i'm an Italian food freak??hahahah..also japanese food freak...

ze smoothies...

Chloe with our appetiser..its yummy and healthy..

our main course..yummy..=)

Ling and thiery ordered vegie pizza and some pasta angelhair...(behind the pizza)

Lala and Vic's appetiser, minnestrone soup



and before i came back to shah alam...tuesday night..we had a 3 months break from Dithyrambic practise...so bibi brought me to FullHouse...

fish with some berries sauce...

Chicken chop i think...

mashed potatoes..this is the best among all...but yet the sauce spoiled the mashed potatoes..sigh...i think the place is just okay despite all the hooohahhs i heard before..hmmm wont think i'll go there again..dunno why...it just wont make me feel like i would like to go there again...

we got ourselves necklaces...pretty necklaces..=)

thats all for now...gonna update bout more recent events soon...

night night and g'bye...=)

Pain that Breathes

i wont say that i'd missed you simply coz u werent and arent around...

since when have i got so dependent of you?

this is what people call LOVE

but its a weakness to me...

keeping myself strong is what i do most of the time..

keeping my poise,

as fearful to some,

as proud to some,

as silly to some,

as stubborn to some...

there are just many pictures to who i really am beneath the poise that i keep holding onto so strongly...

but afterall..i'm just another imperfect human in the world..

one who makes mistakes over and over again...

one who believes that let pain breathe through them so to make them stronger...

is it stronger? or is it an immune to the pain?

how i wished i could sleep longer, wake up later...

so that time will pass easily...

no it did not happened...

waiting for some text message alert on my cell...

its like waiting for rain to fall upon the desert...

so rare...and so hard to wait for...

which accidentally remind myself of the same I, same time last year...

my strong poise is falling apart now..

i'm so tearful now..

tears fall easily just like a blink of an eye...

stress load i may have been put on lately??

stubborn-ness in me thats obstructing myself from moving forward??

problems with no solutions to it??

is it wrong to think about the past?

its not like its worth any rememberance to it...

but just another theme to my mega-huge sonata....or should i said an interlude??

the past, the present, the future...

when you realise that that used-to-be-special-someone is just another pitstop in your long journey...

it makes u let go even easily...

knowing that the pitstop is just one of the many that you will stopby in ur journey,

makes it no longer in any significance to you...

pain that breathes,

are more powerful than pain that pierce ur thru or cut u up in to many many pieces...

it is for that they live in you...

unlike the latter which would heal eventually with time, eventhough they give you scars...

pain that breathes...

your's trully,

Clarrise HueyHsiang.

Imperfectly Perfect

Sometimes when words do not express your thoughts, what will you turn to?
when one does not say a word, merely just keeping quiet...what is the person thinking??
sometimes keeping quiet is a good time to keep ur mind to urself, thinking and seeing other point of views toward a matter, and sometimes you do see things more crystal clear..
i thought you werent like that...but somehow you proved me wrong...or maybe was i too sensitive to feel it in the first place..i was there alone...with strangers whom i do not know...and you left with there all alone with them...without even looking back at me to check if i was alright there...yes you did not...nevermind..its okay...
left alone with a bunch a strangers...this feeling, this scene wasnt awkward to me at all as i was so used to it in the past..that its starting to haunt me now...nevermind..its okay...
sometimes when i do not speak, there is a reason behind it...
sometimes when i throw my temper, there are reasons behind it...
i once heard PMS is created by the guys to be used on girls when they simply let go of their temper on them..hence the infamous PMS excuse...
unlike guys, girls' mind and thinking are far more complex...


there are few times that i found that by keeping quiet it will save us lots of time from argueing with each other..
coz from the moment you give me no response to a matter...i know no matter how people hurt me, in the end you will either give me no response again, or worse still, it will end up even uglier with us fighting...and then it will be me who's the one who's bad tempered...yes i admit i am not a person with good temper and patience...nevermind..its my fault...

hurting one without doing it...sounds impossible no?? from the moment you raised your voice at me..almost shouting...there is no turning back...and it will be another mark in our history...and one day one of us might regret doing it when looking back...but who can turn back the time? not even god...whats done its done...

sometimes i feel sorry for the words that came out from my mouth without putting much thoughts and consideration to it...and no matter how much i regretted it i can never take them back...so does other people...if you think people's making a scene or drama on what you had said...its only so because you are the one who allow all that to happen to you by saying something stupid in the begining...

keeping quiet does keeps one away from lots of dramatic scenes..but often when one keeps quiet for too long..somehow or another some people will take advantage of that and bully you...but when you try to speak up for ur own rights and thoughts..people whom you thought will be on your side, instead, just keep quiet, or actually thinks that its no big deal, in fact that you're just making a scene, or seeking attention from others..

is there any justice?? is it worth seeking justice as prejudice will rule in the end??

this post is dedicated to you, my imperfectly perfect boyfren..you know that term??=)

good night and good morning fellow earth people...=)

have a great night sleep, or have a fab day ahead of you..=)

with love...

Dead

so should i just officiall announce that this blog is so dead that i bet no one stepped into this site for some time??

Just call me plain lazy..i no longer find the motivation to camwhore or to take picture even whenever i go out, just like i how i used to be...maybe i dont find any reason to take pics anymore..and even if i did..the amount of photo is what i can describe as...SAD...so thats why i dun even bother to post it up here..and just leave them to rot in my cam, in my handbag..hahaha..gosh i'm such a meanie...

my wisdom tooth is hurting again since days ago..shyt..everytime when i'm up to something important it'll start to hurt..just like months ago when i was bout to leave for Korea for performance..it got so bad that it swollen like shyt and i couldnt even speak properly, up til the extend that i couldnt even close my mouth...and now i'm like a week away from my competition and here comes the pain..i'm not too worried bout the pain..just the swelling part..talking bout the PERFECT TIMING...=__="

hmmm...talking bout competition, dunno what am i gonna do with my hair..its at a state that its not too long nor too short..sigh...i miss my hair...=( am gonna keep it long again..but dunno how many gazillion years it'll take...+_____+

hmmm everything's been great this year..i love this year..i've accomplished much...it has been very interesting..lotsa happened..except the fact that i'm uber broke...hahahah...well not that i've been spending like my dad prints money...no..i just started to realise that the living standards in KL is so high..and i could hardly survive on my monthly allowance..lets just say next year will be a nightmare.i dunno how am i gonna make it seriously..not that my dad does not give me the money...he does..in fact..he said i could ask for more when i dun have enough..and so that was what i did when i was desperately in need of money to survive..mana tahu..kena lecture..then after that..he said if not enough let him know again..how irony??.well..most of the money i took from him i spend on paying my vocal and violin lessons, and now..for the accompanist..so in the end there's barely much left for my own spending lo to be honest..and thanks to who that i'm in such state???? i will not say...but god knows, my dad knows, she knows and i know...

every now and then i cant help but keep wondering..how can i survive in the coming next year??sigh...

hmmm shall i start blogging again??feeling abit lazy though...ahahha..i'll try my best la...fully utilize my camera...hahhaha...

okay..will update soon
ciaoz

Pamper

Its been kinda long since i had such a good time...initially no plans for the night...only plan was to rehears with fren for an upcoming concert next week...then stay at home for more series n then call it a night...ever since last month when i'm starting to feel the pinch of running outta cash...didnt really wanna go out at all...prefered to stay at home most of the time coz thats the only way to ensure that i wont spend...

well you know..plans that came up suddenly at last minute..normally would bring some fun into my everyday life...so went out to setapak to teman my dear to get back his uncle's guitar from an old fren of his..then went over to Library in Cineleisure..hanged out with some frens...its been kinda long since i had such a great time drinking and hanging out with frens...and tonight is the night...after that i felt like dancing..so dear texted yirui who's at Maison every thursday..that we'll be going over to join her there...

again we were there...well...i had my part of fun..hopefully i did not neglected my bf..lolz...came back to cheras again for supper..as expected la...dear where can be full after eattin poridge without any proper meat in his meal...hahahha..in fact he had supper TWICE...lolz...

my hair is getting abit better...not so sad d la...some said i look better with this hairstyle..but not much of a difference also actually..ahhaha...well..i dunno la..but am happy that its getting better day by day...gonna nourish it with plenty of conditioner...hahjahahhaha...


okay...i had my part of fun and its gonna last for some time before i feel the need to inject more into my life...time to focus on what i need to do now..upcoming concert in Bukit Jalil Golf Club..and most important of all before the arrival of 2010....VOCAL COMPETITION (FINALS) in Johore...at the same time..shall keep on practising for my Graduation Recital next year...kinda worried now at the state that i'm going...

its already the ending of my 1st week of semester break...somehow i dun feel like i'm having any holidays..lolz...well coz to start with..i wasnt really that busy with during the semester...or was i busy but i'm already so used to it i dun feel it anymore?ahaha...and even with the semester break..i still got classes to attend and stuff...Tuesday..weekly Dithyrambic practise..will be more intense as we have upcoming concerts..Melacca in end of this month and our Debut in MPO(that is if u dunno..we're singing with the organist at Dewan Philharmonic, KLCC) in December...gotta rush back to KL straight from Johore after the Vocal Competition ended...Wednesday got Vocal lesson...Thursday got major lessons in Uni, Friday night gotta go Urbanattic for JazzPetrol, Saturday gotta teach in Midvalley and Violin lessons...

so as u can see..i'm still busy...and even after the vocal competitions and all the concerts, xmas carolling's coming up next..hahaha...well...am glad that i have so many things to do..at least i wont be wasting much of my time..loitering at home without doing anything usefull..ahaha...

i'm begining to enjoy my life, to love my life being a musician and a part time singer..(am i qualified to call myself that??lolz)...never regreted of choosing this path in my life..hope everything will be better and better..

of coz..there's one thing thats bothering me right now..hopefully it wont be something that i need to worry..and everything will go well for me for now and in future...

kayz...thats the short update..i know its been kinda long since i updated much bout myself and stuff..busy and getting lazy d...

til the next update..
ciaoz..

Heart Broken

everytime i touch my hair, or even look into the mirror..i feel terribly sorry for myself..for the decisiont that i've made...never expected that it would cause so much harm to me...and the outcome...totally unexpected...and i guess there's nothing i can do but to wait for time to pass to let it heal...


yea i'm heart broken...not coz i fought with my bf or what...hahaha..say til so dramatic...cheh...lolz...

went to did my hair..never expected my hair to so damaged all these while..and just in two days' time i've permed and straightened my hair twice each...sigh...now...nothing can be done.i'm suffereing from hair crisis 1st time in my life...i guess this really teach me lesson...cheap stuff doesnt mean its good...all these while my hair havent been treated correctly, nicely..hence the accumulated damages...

since i got back..i tied my hair in a ponytail coz its in a terrible state..dry, damaged...almost broom-like...hopefully after washing 2mr it'll be better..dead worries now...

aih...i need some miracle...

Big Bully On the Road ----> WNS 3289

firstly, i know this is not the correct thing to do...but serious this asshole seriously ticks me off...and also to warn all of u out there on this stupid driver..watch out for this car in future please...thank you..

i was on my way back to Cheras from Bukit Jalil after having vocal class...so usually it takes me almost an hour to reach home despite its short distance..its always jam and people would just cut in and out of ques...so today i've told myself that i should drive nicely and let people in if they need to...so...when i was reaching the turnout to Bandar Tun Razak and Taman Connaught from Kesas highway..i was QUEING....and then...suddenly i saw some few cars zoomed passed me on the right side and straightaway expect other cars ahead to let them in...and mind you..other cars and motorist were already HONKING this particular HONDA ACCORD in LIGHT BROWN METALIC with car number plate of WNS 3289...so of coz i wouldnt let him in coz its my road..my line, and i was MOVING AHEAD at that time...and this car...he just KEEP FORCING HIS WAY INTO MY LINE...UNTIL MY CAR IS LESS THAN 10CM FROM BOTH HIS BLOODY HONDA AND THE CAR ON MY LEFT SIDE...and I COULDNT MOVE ONE TINY MILLIMETER AT ALL...COZ IF I DID..I'LL HIT HIS CAR AND THE CAR ON MY LEFT...(U THINK U DAMN SMART AITE??IT ONLY SHOWS HOW IDIOTIC YOU ARE IN PERSON)...so i STARED at him...and this BALDING DECENT LOOKING UNCLE (might gives u the false impression that he's harmless..but in fact he's the BIGGEST BULLY on the road) stared back at me...i can assure u how close his car was to mine..that i can see if he has a tiny mole on his face..THAT CLOSE....so we stared at each other for few seconds..he was quite SMART..coz he thought that by SANDWICHING me i would let him go, have things his way..which i eventually did..NOT COZ THAT I'M SOMEONE THAT HE COULD BULLY..but coz THATS NOT MY CAR AND I DUN WANNA GET INTO TROUBLES OF HITTING OTHER CARS...

UNCLE...from the outside u seriously look decent..harmless and polite..but in fact..ur the BIGGEST ASSHOLE, BIGGEST BULLY ON THE ROAD i've ever seen..yea ur driving HONDA ACCORD..so what?? MYVI's also a car too ok...what makes u think that u have bigger car means u have bigger rights to cut ques??and secondly...ur sooooo damn fucking IMPOLITE that u makes me feel DISGUSTED...its not ur road, ur line...yet u force ur way into MY ROAD...pun sudahlah...and u have to SANDWICH me til i cant move..IF I MOVE I WOULD HIT INTO UR CAR AND I WOULD HAVE TO PAY YOU you SLIMMY BASTARD..and in the end i had to give u a hand gesture to "WELCOME" U TO CUT MY LINE coz i've no choice...thirdly..i'm a lady driver and i know most m'sian male drivers, especially, would make fun of lady drivers here on how lousy they drive and all...yes i'm a lady driver...a yound lady driver..but that doesnt mean that i can be easily bullied and being take advantages of...and if i were to see you again and you provoke me once more..i can assure you that i'm daring enough to do things you can never imagine me doing...my dad taught me well on road manners...being polite and same time not being taken advantages of..

this is totally not the right thing to do..i'm sure...but coz what u did was seriously too much..u seriously DESERVE EVERY CURSE FROM ALL THE DRIVERS THAT U HAD PROVOKED IN THE PASS, THE PRESENT AND IN THE FUTURE...i'm sure KARMA will get urself served in ur most DESERVED way...because ur the MOST IMPOLITE, SLIMMIEST and STUPIDEST driver..and NOT FORGETTING...BIG BULLY ON THE ROAD..i'm sure ur family are totally ashamed of you...

NOTE TO THIS UNCLE'S FAMILY...PLEASE THINK A MILLION TIMES BEFORE CONSIDERING USING THIS CAR FROM NOW ON-----> WNS 3289...U'LL NEVER KNOW MAYBE TOMORROW SOMEONE HE PROVOKED DECIDED TO TAKE REVENGE ON HIM...AND BY USING THIS CAR UR INDIRECLY PUTTING URSELF IN DANGER...

and last but not least...

GOOD LUCK TO YOU UNCLE...i'm sure u'll NEED it...

Grant Me A Wish

i've uploaded these pics while i was at urbanattic last nite..didnt had the time to blog til now..piggin out in my room on my bed since i got back from a wedding dinner..my babysitter's son's wedding..
the more wedding i've gone to lately.. makes it harder for me to believe in marriage..Do they actually live happily??everything seems so superficial...it always has been the culprit..TRUST..

okay..cut the crap..more updates..PD trip during Raya..

The girls..MinJi, Ling, Lala, Moi and Vivian

Dinner Time

someone called that night..to check on me whether i still hold a grudge on him since the bloody day he hurt me and left me to die...

sorry..i'm just not in the right state of mood and right state of mind now..even if i'm blogging bout happy stuff

god knows what it is

Vocal Competition @ Civic Hall PJ on 27th September

LaiYee, ChaiYing, Moi and Chloe

Josephine and I..my accompanist

Top 10 for both Guy and Girls categories..

Top 4 of both categories..which will be competing again against each other in Nationals in Johor in Dec...

we got into the Nationals..Clar, Rachel, Zhong, Johan, and Terry(Maggi)

members of Dithyrambic Singers..all of them are Mr Ian's Student..except for me..Mr Ian is my Si Goong..haha

i was the 2nd-runner up

with YuenNee, Cynthia, Carmen and Rachel

my teacher

with ling and chloe..

with Mr Ian Lim


dear rushed over to civic hall again after he's done with his wedding gig in Klang...then we went yamcha in SS2's WongKok

with xiaoteng, YeeFen, Chloe and Jo

wanna thank dear for supporting me and always be there for me..fetching me to classes..letting me use his car to go to classes..send me over to MIA for rehearsals and supported me during the competition...thanks alot

also not forgetting Mr Ian for coaching me, my teacher Bee Theng...and frens that supported me..thanks alot...
i will do my very best during the Nationals in Dec down in Johor...

When words can no longer express myself...

when talks could no longer help...

when booze no longer be the thing that helps to forget bout all the problems and miseries...

i wonder what will be next..........