Givin Up

sometimes i really do wonder if patience is the answer to everything..i'm sorta tired of everything...every now and then something will just pop out and it gets worse and uglier each time...

i thought i could be strong enough to pull it all thru...to pull myself thru this tough path..i seriously thought i could...but at a moment just now i almost broke down seeing all the obstacles that lies infront of me...

and it all got me thinking if this is what i really want..if all of this is worth for what i'm going thru and what i'll be facing..

wanna thank someone who was there to give me advise...words can be ugly most of the times..especially those that comes out of nothing...

still trapped in a very confused situation...is giving up an option??

sorry for the lack of updates...loads happened lately and i've got some pics for the blog..just waiting for the time that i can really spend on updating my blog...for the mean time i'll just drop by every now and then to update bout my recent thoughts and what i'm up to lately...

neglecting my private blog once again...sigh...


happy weekend to all
=)
toodles..

Broken String

say byebye to my beloved Teh O' Ais Limau/Iced Lemon Tea....due to some health issues...had a simple checking of my blood pressure last nite at grandma's place...and it was even lower than the time i checked in melacca 2 weeks back...the reading was at 60-90 two weeks back..and last nite's was 53-98...normal reading is at about 80-100 for a healthy regular person my age...(i think..correct me if i'm wrong...) asked my aunt what can i do bout it (she's a nurse in Pantai Hospital Melacca) but she said its okay for my age...but my mom thinks otherwise...sometimes i feel weak too...guess Teh O' Ais Limau been givin me no mercy...think i really need to listen to my mom's advise for good in order to save myself...


put on weight...sigh...dun even dare to step on the weighing machine to see how much is it now...

weather's terible here back at home..uber hot...sigh...and i'm feeling kinda sleepy already...blame the stupid weather...it just makes u doesnt want to move at all...

body's aching like shyt...MOS on thursday...thats the reason...seriously my lifestyle now is not doing any good to me...all the drinkings and late nights...wonder whats the reaction i'll get from my parents if they found out..harharhar...well...i only live young for once in a lifetime..=p


just a short update of myself...crazy period of Uni is here now...dont even wanna think about it..its all about the assignments and late nights..i wish i could have 36 hours in a day...to do all that i need to do and still have time to do what i wanna do...

p.s.: there's so much i wish i could tell you...but i guess its not the right time yet...please bare with it, for now, my dear...


loves to all..
muahzmuahz...
toodles..=)

Reasons Behind It

getting busier and busier by each day...plus concert's coming soon...next week that is...lots of rehearsals coming up, and tonnes of assignments waiting to be done...sigh...uni life...good and bad..

my life's been good..things are going thru kinda well i would say...at a point that i'm no longer putting high expectations towards everyday...and funny how things will turn out nicely for me without me expecting anything...

just some random post to keep my blog updated..a meal cooked by ling some time ago...







thanx alot ling ling for always cooking for me..muahz..loves to my darling...=)



pics from last monday...Dennis's birthday..

after dinner went for ice cream..group pic..lala, Emma, MinJi, KaiXing, Sammy, MinJi's fren, Clar and Eddy..Dennis's the one holding cam..

playing sudoku...


last thursday...went to BangkokJazz with frens...its been more than 3 months since i last been there...

with Darling rui..

smokey....

QQ and Emma.

Candid of Emma and MinJi.

group pic..i looked like wanna kill rui..hahaha

harhahrhahr....=D

Clar and emma...thought MinJi is in the pic too..but didnt know she looked away..

Rui and QQ, nel and Eddy behind...

funny expression..lolz

Eddy and I.

Emma and Rui...

Monday, went to The Curve to celebrate LaiJiun's birthday...had dinner at Bubba Gump..gonna update bout it in my next post..pics still in cam..harhar..at nite watched Twilight on lappy...quite nice la i would say..haha..touching..reminds me of how sweet the feeling of being in love...something i've long forgotten..lolz..

tuesday as usual busy...choir til late coz concert coming..gotta have extended practise sessions...

wednesday...kinda free...one class only whole day..but stayed back in uni's library to read up for stuff for my assignment...at nite had trio practise at some auntie's house...at nite went for yamcha with Eddy, joined uni frens..laughed like shyt...

thursday...bumming at home right now...blogging while waiting for time to pass...gonna go fetch ling and Eddy from uni later...then go swimming...MOS tonight...Ahhhh cant wait...am sure it's gonna turn out damn fun..I DONT CARE!!!! harhahrhahr

cant wait for tonite..=)

loves to all...

muahzmuahz...

toodles...=)

Shuuuussssshhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

almost a week since i last updated...think my blog is covered with a thin layer of dust..hahaha..



well eventful week i would say..and mostly a happy one...havent have this for quite some time...something i appreciate it so much...



some drinking session at Dennis's on sunday nite for his birthday....followed by a Korean BBQ dinner in Ampang with Dennis and frens for his birthday too..



and my return to Bangkokjazz after quite some time..hahaha...



but at the same time something upsetting happened...somehow i just dun understand why there's some people who just couldnt keep their nose to themselves...and likes to poke it around in people's life and matters...as though its all something to do with them....speak all you want...spread all you and and judge all you want...as long as i know that i'm on the right side...you can say all you want...





good day people..

p.s.: mind your own business will ya??



loves to all..

muahzmuahz

FML Please!!!

to sums up my weekend...i dunno whats got onto me...seriously it was the most nonsensical weekend i ever had...been doing assignments for so many years on my lappy and 1st ever encountered such accidents..i brought back my lappy to melacca with me yesterday to get some work done...was doing MIDI...suddenly someone went and switch of the switch...and i lost some part of my assignments...then on it back again...had some work done again, saved it and left for dinner...by the time i got back...was told that someone went and switch off the fucking switch..AGAIN!!!! luckily didnt lose any of my work..but still..all these is kinda damaging towards my lappy lo....

just now went out for dinner...Eddy and ling went to shah alam to pick me up...went to pyramid for dinner and to get some pressie for our fren's birthday...while at sakae sushi...planned to take pic..and accidentally...deleted all my existing pictures...luckily i loaded all the redang pics into my lappy..so all i've lost now are the pics that i've taken in melacca...those jab pics..just a few la...sigh...went to bookstore after dinner...browsed thru some novels...and some of the titles really hit me hard and went digging on my scars so that they're bleeding again...emo emo emo...

came back home started doing my Piano Ped assignment...was preparing the presentation for mock teaching on tuesday morning...then something happened...i knew i copied it before doing anything..but when i wanna repaste it..nothing came out...and i've spend an hour think and typing my presentation...suddenly all gone...and in the end i spend another half an hour thinking and typing what i typed earlier...FML!!!!

seriously this 2 days is so effing insane...

let 2mr be better please...coz i'm already going mad!!!!!

Redang Getaway

Here comes the long post on me running away to Redang last weekend..lots of camwho pictures as always...dun say i didnt warn u beforehand...






it all started on last friday...stayed back in cheras coz i was supposed to attend a choral performance..was all alone at condo as lala went to vic's, ling went to temple..was online as usual chatting with frens..Eddy asked me a few times to join them to Redang as they got a performance there..suddenly lala came back to condo..saying that she's packing up and leaving for Redang in less than an hour..and she asked me to go too..was torned between two parts back then coz i really wanna go with them, but on the other hand i feel bad for ditching ling if i was to go Redang..then fren online (Stan..) told me to go Redang coz if i dont i'll regret it for sure..so after abit thinking i made a crazy decision and ran away to Redang..lala left to meet up with them when i was just bout to start packing..so i quickly grabbed some clothes,shorts and bikini, chucked them into a backpack..while i was almost done with it, got a call from them saying that there might not be a space for me..but after waiting in much anticipation, i still managed to go..=D left condo at midnite..went to tapao Mcd for David before hitting the roads..





reached Eddy's house at 6 something in the morning..took a rest..supposed to wake up at 9am but in the end woke up at 11 instead..haha..freshened up and went for lunch before leaving for the jetty to go over Redang..


MinJi right there..




sleepy face..lol..Emmanuel and Dennis





bus picked us up from the office to the Jetty

MinJi and Emmanuel

Dennis..

Eddy..thats David behind there

Lala and i

waiting to get on the boat at the jetty

suck in to get a slimmer face..lol

....

David,Junie and Clar

1st time out in the sea..i love...=)

Macam curi tengok..

beautiful..i spend the whole trip there enjoying the sea view and sea breeze

spend around an hour of the boat..and we reached Redang..=D

like this pic of us..

been ages since i went to a beach

she said she looked like a crazy woman running towards me..haha

happy =)

stupidity strikes again..

its even more beautiful than what u see here..


after getting checked into our room, left our stuff there,changed into swimming attire and hit the beach..

hours later..getting ready to perform...

Clar n Angela..coz we're not performing..=D

Junie and MinJi..vocalists for the nite, Emmanuel..CARHORNIST for the nite..lolz...(dunno whether i got the spelling rite anot)

lala braided his hair for him..coz i did a lousy job on tie-ing ppl's hair...T_____T

yeng-ness...lol

performing..

with Junie

was having dinner..then lala and Dennis went down..

lala's so photogenic...

after dinner...there was some so called disco session after all the performances by local radio DJ and a singaporean actress..went dancing abit...

i think i wasnt there at that time..mom called and ran to somewhere else to answer it...lol

and here comes Emmanuel..lol

berjoget-ing...lol

laugh my ass out everytime i see this pic..reminds me of Johnny Bravo..lol

dunno what are they pointing at...

sweaty us after all the dancing..and the Macarena song that seemed to be playing forever..haha came back for our drinking and game session..

during break...standing sleeping position..reminds me of the movie ConeHeads..they sleep in standing position..hhaha

when the alco started to kick in...

ahhh..i just love this one..uber silly..

reached destination...La-La Land..

almost there...almost there..hahaha

gone case d this one..hahaha

reddish...

lets be silly together..=p

so now i know how i look when i'm almost drunk...hahah

lolz...its like i'm trying to say..."bang!!!!tak cukup larhh...satu lagiiiii!!!!!!!!"

hahaha...lolzz...


oh yea..suddenly remembered that Eddy spilled his cuppa alco...and it flooded the cards and my Hp....luckily i managed to save it in time...

went out to look for BlueSand...not everyone went coz some of them crashed..lol...

empty..

Good Morning..=D



packed up our stuff, checked out and went out to the sea again...unfortunately no pictures taken when we're at the beach or in the sea...sigh.

after hours...got back and cleaned up while waitin for time to leave Redang...

wanna take lotsa pics before we leave..

group pic..

left at around 2 something...

went eatting around Kuala Terengganu...we had lots of keropok lekor...=) my fav...
left after dinner..hit the roads around 10 something...

reached KL early in the morning at 4 something 5...went for McD breakfast before going home..

scars i got while went to look for white baby sharks..kicked some sharp rocks i think..hurts kinda badly at 1st..not seriously injurd but somehow i just dun understand why does it hurt so much til i cant walk properly...

got sun burnt and all red...

can see the skin tone difference at my lower back??lolz..its not coz of shadow i can assure u..

days after i removed the airbrushed tattoo...nice design..having some thoughts bout it...still considering

missed Redang already..hopefully that i'll be back there again with frens and family...=)

well wanna thank Eddy for the trip..thanx ALOT!!!! =D had a really great time there with you guys...=)

went down to Melacca this morning...stucked in jam and the whole journey took us twice the time to reach there normally...well went down to visit grandma and same time to take the vaccine jab for Influenza...to prevent flu or some sort la..dunno...this time round all the relatives were back there..even merrier than CNY...everyone took the jab..and only mine hurts...got abit blueblack there..sigh...

busy with uni assignments and upcoming concert performance at Chinese Assembly Hall...gonna update as often as i can...

loves to all,

muahzmuahz

toodles...=)