Sometimes its just hard to belief the truth...

in just such short period of time..so much had happened..sometimes when u stop in the track of time,think about all that has happened in ur life,no matter is it for good or bad..its still sometimes hard to belief what u see has actually happened..and sometimes,its kinda hard to deal the truth...of so many things that should happen...it all came down to this conclusion..everyone's got their own past,dark secret which they just keep to themselves to this very day..in fear that if people were to know bout it,how people will see her as a person??

i dont know since when i hate major changes so much, that i myself have already changed so much that i didnt even noticed..i hate changes..but its not for me to choose coz there are things that happened are beyond our control...its not like we have a choice..i've been thinking alot..things definately wouldnt be the same anymore...i think in future when i stop to think about now,i would miss our time together,the kinda things we did together,the places which holds so much of our memory...things wouldnt be the same anymore.and i hated it so much...even when there's still no changes..YET....

i've been thinking bout myself..what kinda person i was in the last few months since so many things happened back then..as i could recall...i was this girl that have no fear in changes,i trusted everyone and all of their words..i was extremely naive..stupid...think so highly of myself that people wont betray my trust...but now..i'm a person who's so scared of any changes..any changes...i never trust people like how i used to be..i see things from some other angle to help me judge a person or an issue...i've been so protective of my fragile heart that i've becoming into some bad person..sometimes i think that..maybe if i became someone so rebellious that i could protect myself...i'm really tired and confused..what will happen next???

Day at home...

yesterday i followed rui's car back to her house and waited for my mom to come pick me up after work..my dad' s not around..won some project thingy so the company sent him and his fellowmates to langkawi for 3 days by air.at 1st my dad wanted to buy another ticket for my mom so she could follow too..but the air ticket cost around 1k plus..my mom said she could have use the money on other things,not so worth it..so she didnt go eventually..

days before,lightning striked the 1st house same row as me,and their roof top was on fire...and the lightning came over to my house(miraculously missed my uncle house,the 2nd house and came to our house) and hit the 'living hall's fan and my house's alarm system..well my mom said it wont work..but to me still seem ok..still got trigger when i open the door...how i wish it hit my tv...so maybe can ask my dad buy LCD tv..wakakaka...

anyways..mom picked me up around 7 something...went to Patisfrance(bakery in taipan) to buy some breads..and we had gelato too...then came back to kota kemuning to had our dinner at some mamak..

next tuesday will be my recital already..hopefully i panic and screw my playing...i'm quite prepared i think...compared to previous times...after recital..me and michelle and rui will go down to KL again..i wanna buy the same cap i bought for bi for Vday, get a metronome...hopefully plan goes well la...

waiting for mom to come home from work and bring me out for lunch...

hope this pic can brightens up everyone's day..=)

Home Alone...

today is the last day of CNY..Chapgohmeh...waiting for my movie to done streaming..god..connection suck now...so darn slow la...aihz..everyone had their own programme...lala went to victor's hse...ling went to temple...yirui went out...me alone at home..nothing much to do...and bi also didnt reply me..aih...bored....=(

Midterm's Over!!!!

yea..just had my last paper for this sem's midterm...finally man...it was the Intro to Music Theatre paper...consisted of some MCQ,short answer and an essay question..well..i didnt study much last nite..after class me and rui went straight to pasar malam to buy dinner for us all..then by the time we headed home also almost 8..after eating and messing around..9 something...then i studies the new slides that the lecturer just posted online...10 something ad..then went to shower,hang out with bi..11 something ad by then...then we watched 恶作剧2吻..around 3 only i slept..then this morning sleepy like shyt...dragged myself to college..force my eyes to open during theory class...oh...anyways..back to my midterm paper...the essay question goes like this:choose any internationally staged musical(not local productions) and briefly talk about its music,storyline,social events if theres any and its main character...i stoned there for quite some time..thinking of which musical to write about as i dunno much..i thought of writting Phantom of the Opera,Sweeney Todd,Singin' in the Rain, South Pacific....one thing..i wasnt sure whether Sweeney Todd is internationally staged but thats the musical that i know bout most...so what the heck..i bet on my luck and went on with Sweeney Todd...hopefully my lecturer accepts my answer..if not i'm sure to fail this paper...

so darn sleepy and tired.but i just couldnt sleep now..was waiting for my turn on the piano...later going to have my violin,piano and vocal classes..god..i super hate thursdays...so i guess i just came here to drop some thoughts of mine...gotta go to practise my piano and violin...til next time....

Valentine's Celebration...

continuation from my last blog...yup screwed Valetine's day..it sucked..but anyways..managed to talk thru stuff..actually i ad gave up Valentine's day and didnt wanted to celebrate it at all...but anyhow..he came to find me after my classes and brought me out for dinner..yea just dinner...coz i had history paper the next morning..so he send me back around 8 something 9...midvalley was packed with lots and lots of humans..when we left...lots of ppl were queing in...i think i sucked in my history paper..having just simply put in everything i know...mixed u with all the facts and dates..and its so darn hard...i never like history..never did...and never am and never will...was so looking forward to friday last week coz my whole week was disasterous...exams and replacement classes..i was exhauted to the max..friday was the worse..had class from 8am til 3 something nonstop..really nonstop...an bi and i was supposed to up to Bukit Tinggi to celebrate Vday..last monute due to some slight changes we didnt go...so we had to find our own plans for the weekend..


my valentine pressie from bi..


happy =)


i didnt mean to brag bout it ok...


oh yea..these are the earrings that bi bought for me...


additions to the collection..

so friday nite we all went over to rui's hse for her open house...it was a blast...i had so much fun there..although i didnt know whats eddy's gf name is..but i really do like u alot..=)hope to know u better..ehehe...then saturday..bi brought me out to pyramid to hangkai coz i wanted to look for something...then after dinner we wen back to Shabu-Shabu in Puchong for dinner...hehe..well this time it wasnt that excited as our 1st time there..but we did enjoy the food there though,,after dinner bi brought me to some hill in puchong that can see half of puchong..








sunday...wanted to go genting actully..but bi decided to bring me there the next time i go ove to his place for the weekend..so we went down to Sg wang to jalan-jalan...this time we took LRT together..it was fun..both of us didnt quite know the route there..but we ended up there still..so it was quite a memorable experience...makan here and there..spend most on food that day...and i bought bi and myself some hp sticker...=)

waiting for LRT


poser boy aka Patrick ong...=)


2nd shot..


this was the funniest!!!hahaha..


decent shot of me..=)


on our way back..bi was thinkin that whether can we be faster than the train if we were to drive..so he shut his eyes and started to imagine that he was driving...and yup he was way faster than we to take the train....hahah

today was one of those unhappy days of mine...1stly it was coz i didnt badly in my CME class,and the lecturer just kept humilliating me like i'm some living beings that dont have feelings..so rite after i finish playing..i rushed out to the toilet to calm myself down..she totally didnt have to said that i'm deaf..coz i can hear perfectly every word that she said...2ndly..sometimes..i wonder..do i live for myself or i live for other ppl...why do i have to see ppl's face and just get on with everything..i mean..its my life here i'm talking about..and just for their information..i too have my own thoughts,feelings and all...
anyhow..i've found my new love when i'm depressed..alcohol...i'm not that daring to try on ciggarettes yet..maybe someday i will..they somehow are my immediate way out to all my problems and depressions for a short time...i wanna be alone..at least just have rui and bi with me...i love them both...they always put sunshine into my days...=)

F**k Valentine's day..coz i just screwed it...

i'm rather pissed rite now...why must things come falling apart rite now...i dont get to celebrate valentine's..and thats also fine with me since i cant possibly change my midterm exam or just screw them up..so i'm stuck at home studying for upcoming exams..which i dont quite understand what am i studying about in the 1st place...2ndly..becoz of some fucking faggot...fight errupted..coz of someone unworthy like him...wtf man...sometimes i just couldnt understand..i've respect u well enough with me telling u..asking u for permission to go out..and then that faggot appeared and its my fault for be there at that time..all i did was that i had to keep my words to people,and not that by keep words to my fren i went against ur words..remember ur the one that said that i could go and be home early and stuff like that...now ur saying that i dont respect you that you care bout what happened to me and my surroundings...just so you know that..ur not the only one that has to put up with everything...i'm very mad and upset at this moment..yet i've got no one to talk to and all...can u understand that??
fuck valentine's man....screw it...

CNY...

i went back to melacca on the cny eve which is on a wednesday,6th of february...woke up with sore throat..just got well from all those previous sickness and again i fell sick again just rite before cny...how lucky is that!!!...anyways..went for breakfast at some mamak before leaving for melacca..reached my grandma's hse around noon..all of my uncles have already went back there one or two days earlier than my family...as usual..all the gambling session, visiting to some relative's house..ang paos..just the norms of cny activities...one the cny 1st day...as usual my uncle hired lion dance performance...just to get some good omen thingy for the new year...brings prosperities to the whole family...god i dont even know what am i talking about..i'm crappin...

lion dance ppl..."eating" the pamelo,chinese lettuces and mandarin oranges..


still "eating"...




my lil cousin...she's really smart..knows bout everything..i was hugging her while watching the lion dance performance thingy..

came back to KL on friday nite after dinner..did some visiting to the relatives in KL...then sunday nite i came back to cheras..an hour later bi came to pick me up to go over his place..joined him for the batangkali trip yesterday morning..went there to visit his grandma...then at nite bi brought me out to pyramid to find new sandals for myself and we had Manhattan Fish Market's seafood platter for dinner..well it was a good meal..bi was craving for it for quite some time since our first time there some around slightly less than two months ago...that time we didnt really get to taste it properly as we had quite a few ppl sharing four person's meal...once in a while we should go there to eat.good meal with fresh seafood..then he send me back to cheras ad...
and here i am in cheras..blogging while i'm supposed to be studying my ass off for these few days as this two weeks i'll be having midterm...time flies eh...pity hubby need to spend valentine's day at john's house...but at least he gets to celebrate and have fun..while i'll be stuck here studying Music HIstory...aih...sad sad sad....and lots of replacement classes to attend..which actually screwed up my timetable entirely for this two weeks...and i have recital in two weeks time..which i cant even play my pieces well let alone perform it in public...aih...college life isnt that wonderful afterall....
btw i went out with rui to midvalley to catch Sweeney Todd..with whom_we_shall_not_mention_here...all i would say is...that person's better to watch out his back for himself/herself...coz we've known ur tactics...so..beware aite???=)...sweet....

Days Before CNY

its been days since i've online..been quite busy lately...with cny near year coming up..meaning lots of replacement classes to attend to make up for the CNY holidays...so...last wednesday..bi messaged me in the afternoon to ask if i can go out for dinner and movies after my class...so after my class,bi picked me up from college and we headed to 1U..met his fren, Adrian and his gf,Flarence there...bought tickets for Sweeney Todd coz Meet The Spartans' show only had one show at midnite..and i had to go home early as i have 8am class on thursdays,my busiest day of all in a week...after that we had our dinner @ Kenny Rogers...walked around then headed for our show..boy that show at 1st scares me quite abit..i'm that kinda person that dont watch horror and ghost movies..so you know la...kinda violent..but come to think of it after the show..its not bad at all...i didnt know Johnny Depp can sing..he always give me those kinda spooky feeling..i think its coz how he looks...so after show bi send me back...and i was to meet him during the weekends before he going off to alor setar,penang and thailand for the CNY holidays..after my classes on friday..bi picked me up and we headed home to rest for awhile and took our dinner before heading out to Adrian's house...waited for quite abit then we headed off to Summit for Meet The Spartans..they keep wanting to watch..so i just tagged along..not quite a fan of such movie...but anyways..our show was @ 11.15pm..so we makan abit then played abit in the arcade to pass time...after that balik rumah tidur....
saturday...well i cant exactly remember what i did..oh yea!!! TEAMSTREET and STREET GENETICS got invited to some event thingy hosted by Philips in one of the suite in Saujana Villa..so met with the all of them as early as around 12 something in the afternoon when the event only started at 3pm...yup i was quite mad coz wasted quite some time there waiting and i didnt know whether i can take my lunch while we were waiting at a mamak in sunway...i was just sitting there and sniffing all those 2nd hand smokes..yea..."good" for health and i would live longer...we left that place around 2 something 3...well Philips was doing some kinda promotion or some sort...its like they rented this unit of suite condo to display some of their selected products..and they invited some car team and some winner from some internet competition thingy..then we were to spend some time there get to know their products and some lil competition and prize giving ceremony...so bi won a electrical shaver...and we got to played their XBox..prepared for us guests..i still think Sony Playstation is better..somehow XBox's controller kinda weird...at nite we met up with Adrian,Flarence and some of Adrian's frens for dinner at Shabu-Shabu Japanese style Steamboat in Bandar Puteri,Puchong..Flarence suggested to have dinner there the night before as she's gonna leave on sunday,to go back to Johor for CNY..

my seat...love it there..my fav Jap style...


bi eating...pork balls,pork slices..we had 5 plates of pork slices...it was really good!!hahah


whole shop's environment....super packed with people nonstop...we were there from around 7 something til the shop closed coz Adrian and Flarence only came just rite before 10pm...


my pot of soup and some food inside...yummy!!gonna go back there some time soon...


enough of eating but were sitting there waiting for Adrian and Flarence to makan..


i had lots of fun there...it was the best meal ever..

Sunday after had our lunch at bi's home...well this time we didnt went out for lunch coz his granma cooked reunion meal before CNY..so ngam i was there so i joined them..it was their tradition wor according to bi...after lunch we watched Flushed Away..not bad..after i got together with bi..i seriously watched damn lot of movies..movies that i wont watch or that i've missed in the past few years...lil do i know that i've missed so many nice movies..we also watched Longest Yard before that..that movie's really good..then we went out for some shopping and hangkai-ing..we went to Jusco Bukit Tinggi..had our dinner at the food court there as bi wanted to eat clay pot rice..while he went to buy our food and i was taking seats for us..i witnessed a fight...god..Klang....i'll never want to go there ever again....even if i have to..i wont eat at the food court...just gonna make my trip there fast and brief...goodness..we went to Padini Concept Store..wanted to buy matching polo tees..but bi said dun want...and somehow just couldnt find the matching colors..at last i bought bi two statement tees for CNY..1st time actually shopping with him for his clothes...



bi bought a new scrunchie for me...and one for his sis..

After shopping we headed home to pack to my stuff and pack luggage for bi..i always pack his luggage for him before he going off to somewhere...then he send me back to cheras..monday,soofun,chinnlynn,cyeu,chernyuik and his gf came to find rui to go down to some place in kl to buy some cheap pants..rui asked me to tagged along..so we went round 1 something..jammed all the way there..and didnt get to buy anything coz chinnlynn's cousin who's working there wasnt working that day..so we couldnt buy as the whole place is dealing with wholesale customers..then they rushed us back to cheras just in time for our class @ 4pm..had our lunch @ mcd rite before class...after class @ 6..went home,did some homework,clean up the house,wash toilet,clean up dongdong for rui to bring back over the CNY holidays..then we went out for dinner around 11 something..came back,relaxed and watched Tong Sam Fong Bou while rui did manicure and pedicure for me,and packed my clothes for the holiday...then headed to sleep...

rui did for me..nice..like it alot!

next post:CNY...

Finally...

its been so damn long since i posted anything new here...thousand apologies to my faithful readers...and to myself..wakaka.yea had been really busy lately..let just say that thousands and millions had happened in a month's time...i'll just keep this post as simple as easy as i can...so i'll just tell u guys briefly...well ever since college reopened..i've been showered with lots of schu stuff to worry about...and i fell sick since the second week of college til now...i was diagnosed with urinal track infection..well..was bz and kinda neglected to look out for myself la i would say..didnt drink enough water and stuff like that..my body just decided to give up on me on such an important period of time...after i managed to pull myself together and slightly got well...i got sick again..this time is throat infection and i fell super sick..high fever, back pain,...basically just everything..it was just very suffering during these few weeks as i wasnt feeling well...and i had to skip some of my classes..i was sick, paranoid bout my studies coz i know i cant afford to screw up any single thing...i was worried sick, that i will barred from taking finals..finally i went home last week,and my mom brought me to the hospital to put a stop to the bloody sickness...u know almost every year i fell sick around this time..as the weather around this time always make people fall sick...but this time it hit real hard on me...in 3 weeks' time i've been to see doctor for 3 times..how incredible is that???hahaha..but glad to say that i'm well now...luckily i got well just in time for cny..haha..anyhow..during those weeks that i didnt blog..i managed to went shopping twice..did alot of things...better get started with the pics already...

on the 10th of january it was a public holiday..so i went out shopping with michelle and rui..but later joined by victor,lala and lingling...we went to KL area to shop..well that few malls:time square,sg wang,pavillion and lot 10...spend one whole day down there shopping for valentine's pressie and cny clothes..we took a cab down to time square.and boy i was really impressed..i didnt know that from my condo to there is so near..we took the smart tunnel and we reached there in less than 10 minutes' time...fast???hahaha...definately better than taking train..

waiting for michelle

in pavillion resting..tired and exhasuted from the walking and shopping...anyways met cy eu and zz in topshop pavillion..its been gazillion years since i last saw them....

in nichii...

michelle needed to help her bf and his frens to get some sneakers..so we went to some shop in time square...while they were busy looking for shoes and michelle bz mms-ing her bf all the shoe's pics..i was looking thru at those baby's sneakers...and they are super duper cute!!!

michelle's choice..damn cool rite?

i love this like mad i swear..its super duper cute and sweet..bi said we're gonna buy it for our daughter next time for her 1st birthday..hahaha...

quite yeng rite...michelle's choice..i think she's quite a fan of nike...

in pavillion's forever 21..waiting for rui..

my face look small for once..haha

blackened eye..coz my make up all smudged up ad..somehow my eyeliner just decides not to stay on my eye...

around one week later...we make our way to 1u this time...but b4 heading there we stopped by in states pj to help that someone to take her ic..but our trip was wasted as they need her to go collect it in person...

outfit of the day...i looked kinda aunty-ish...

mirrors..fitting rooms...camwhoring sessions..

while i was trying on clothes...rui was there doing here make up...nearly made a big mess..hahaha but luckily she managed to correct it..anways spotted 8tv's quickie host Belinda in Padini Concept store..

those that watch Gossip Girl...rui kinda look like Serena Van Der Woodsen rite???hahaha

in Forever 21...like that tube alot..but it cost a bomb..

while waiting for bi to come...sit there stoning....rui entertaining herself with her hp...

dalam tandas...

i look like i was in my own state of mind...high...wakaka

yea proper one...

in burger king..had our dinner there before movies...we watched game plan..

pics from rui's hp..got this dreamy effect..hahaha..

emo couple...lolz..

always press press press...wahahahaha

weird looking couple...

lala's kuku gigi...

bi made cookies for me..and they are tasty...

me and rui broke like shyt...thats y we eat at home..and its kind of her mom to buy vege for us and not taking money from me...

the pasta salad with chicken chop that we made..healthy and tasty...of coz we bought the chicken chop from some restaurant la...hahah

2nd time we cooked...we bought fried pork chop...

rui cooked miso soup with vege in it...

and for main dish..we had cold organic soba with some mushroom sause thingy...(which i broke the whole bottle of mushroom sause on ling's birthday)...

ling's birthday was on the 18th of january...so we went out for dinner at some vege restaurant in PJS 1..surprise of that day was ejay,ling's bf and eddy..ling's "bf"..and my task was to bring the surprise guests over to surprise her...

bi....he looked like a happy baby..wahahah

my "bf"...thanx alot for bringing bi over to the restaurant for me...=)

with eddy...

introducing ejay..ling's bf...new member to our big family...

after dinner we went over to asia cafe for pool..well supposedly la...but ended up we had our drink there..then we headed home straight after that...

over the weekend i went over to bi's...we made cookies together...well it was kinda fun..and i only got to know that cookies are really FATTENING!!!!...

1st batch...

look at how oily they are......eeeeww...

ta da!!!!well have to admit that this time its not as good as the previous batch of cookies that bi made for me..somehow i just couldnt figure out what went wrong...according to him we used back the same recipe as before...so..i dunno...

last batch that me and celine made..well this tiny blackened piece here is done by her..guess we didnt look after it while its in the oven...and most of the cookies from the last batch all turned black...with hangus smell all over...

as always..his dad brought us out for brunch..this time round we went to a seafood restaurant in robson's heights..well near tian hou goong la...that time i was sick already...forcing myself to go out for lunch...

1st time eating lobster..so just bear with my jakun-ness ok??hehehe..(but this pics not taken by me...)

after that weekend i went back to schu...skipped a few classes here and there..finally i thought i got well on thursday as i was back to normal and fit for my classes..mana tahu just as the day's bout to end on friday...fever hit me back again..so ngam i went home..and my mom brought me to assunta hospital...then my bro saw...

saw the grammar mistake??hahaha...


gonna update more soon..at bi's place...til then...