Confession of a Good Gal turns Bad...

yea..this post i'm gonna make a kind huge confession..bout my true self...

can u keep it a secret between me and you???but anyways...

hueyhsiang hasnt been quite a good gal lately..she's been doing things she's not supposed to do..and going places she's not supposed to go...

hate to say this..but me likey clubbing...like the attention,like the crowd and like dancing...

some may not like the new me..but..i'm enjoying every minute of it..i've gone bad...real bad..no matter where i go i cant stop think bout it..even when i go shopping i just cant help but i always look for clothes and accesories that can be worn to clubbin...

i like the feeling of getting high..getting all the alcohol i could into my system...i like the feeling of getting numb coz thats the only time when i could trully let go of myself and forget bout everything...i dont need to think of how ppl will look at me..i dont need to think of how ppl will think of me..as long as i have fun..i dont really give a damn..

i'm a totally different person..in the process of transforming...i know i shouldnt...but i cant help it..coz i totally enjoyed the feeling...just like you enjoy how cigarrette can make you forget bout problems,alcohols can make u high and make your brain ask u to drink more even when u know u shouldnt..

i know u wouldnt like me transforming into someone bitchy and slutty...i know myself...

now i think that wearing revealing and short is totally fine..

i feel trapped..i'm confused..i dunno what to do..

but all i know is whenever there a chance..i will go out and have fun...

sometimes i think i'm going phsyco..i'm going crazy...i can get emo this minute..and be happy the next minute..i can get super easily influenced by watching some show..for example...a couple in the show is fighting over some small stuff..i'll get paranoid and thought that i'm that person in the show..i got scared for nothing...i start to imagine stuff which doesnt even exists in the 1st place...i keep worry bout things i shouldnt...

i think i'm really going crazy....

its gonna be a long and lonely path down in search of who i really am after all the major changes in my life...i've discover that i want to be a model..although i know i just dont have what it takes to be one..i want to be a photographer..i like taking pics of plants and sceneries,skies..anything...i want to be someone that everyone knows..i hate to be unknown...i want to get tattoo..but i'm scared of the pain..and worry how my parents will think of me...

but i guess i shouldnt think much of what people wants..but should think of what i trully wants for myself...say i'm selfish..i hate him smoke,clubbing,drink,get tattoo,drive fast..but i totally enjoy doing it myself..except for smoking and driving fast..but i guess he'll never understands me..is that so hard to find someone who trully understands you and accept you for who you are??

maybe the reason i dont want him to do all those is coz i know how much it will harm a person in health vise and safety vise..but i dont mind i myself doing all that...maybe coz my heart tells me that i really love him alot and i dont want him to do things that will hurt himself..maybe i'm trying to hurt him..after all he has hurt me...i want him to know how much it hurts to see the one you love hurt herself...

i really dunno what i want now...

i'm confused...

Additional Updates...

finally...finished loadin all the pics...well.not really in the mood to talk say much here..just update for the sake of updating and there's nothing much i can do at home at this time..kinda sleepy and tired...drowsy..last nite i think i had a slight fever...just now kena rain but didnt go shower straight away..so i guess 2mr i'll fall sick already...so..yesterday was xmas..well it was family day coz seldom my parents didnt work..so my dad brought us to the new AEON shopping mall in Bukit Tinggi in klang..it was a public holiday..so it was really packed..packed with jakuns...not-so-civilised people la..well not to say that i'm looking down upon them..but thats how they gave me this feeling...pushing around and just wont apologize and all..not polite ppl in all words..but overall kinda ok la the shopping experience there...managed to get two tops from NICHII..i heart my new tops..then me and my mom went into SUMMERSET BAY...oh my goodness god..hahaha...i fell head over heels with their latest collection...omg its so frigging lovely wei...i kinda eyed on a dark pink spag...and i fell in love with a full length lace dress..omg i swear to you..its really superb nice..but damn expensive..me and my mom totally didnt wanna leave that shop at all...well she did went to try on a few tops but it didnt fitted her well..so not that she dont wanna buy...it just dont fit la..hahhaa....so there goes my xmas...shopping and outside most the time..erm up next is the pics that day @ maison..all these are from rui...thanx rui for the pix..


all dolled up...way before time..


cher wei,rui,chinnlynn and me..


all the gals that nite for both the tables..i think la...


too bz drinking..still holding my glass when they asked to join in..








mari bersama-sama minum!!!


i just looked thru all the pics..and i just found out that my face was abit red..maybe coz i'm dark thats why cant really see much..hahaha.


rui,cheng wei,me and kerzhing


jenny and i...college mate...




going....going....but not gone yet...lolz..more funny pics..but aint posting up here..coz i'm sure ppl surely will think dirty..hahaha..




rui and my man....bi's face damn red wei...he like damn not "song" like that..lolz


crazy me and cherwei..






erm...i think his name is...john????forgotten liao...sorry dude...=)


gone soon...resting with chinnlynn..well should say she kinda teman me there la..coz my man dunno gone where ad..or was he dancing??cant really remember though...

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i was so totally in the mood to update my blog...and guess what...blogger decides that i shouldnt..cant even post a single pic..god..aihz..just stay tuned ok if u wanna see more pics and updates on these few days....

Recent Updates...

last saturday was some chinese traditional celebration called "dong jit"..where we will all eat "tong yuen"..so my mom made some..



normally i dont really fancy eating the tong yuen that my mom cooks..coz the tong shui always not sweet enough and i hate to taste all the flour taste..but this year i think my mom put alot of ginger water in it so i cant really taste the flour taste anymore..plus its fairly sweet..my family dont really take sweet and oily stuff..over healthy ad..so i only get to eat junkfood outside..junkfood like M&Ms,chips,sweets,goreng stuff...so anyways...saturday nite went out to had dinner with my grandma and all the uncles...close relatives..@ RESTAURANT EXTRA SUPER TANKER..well those penang ppl should know that SUPER TANKER is like the MING TIEN in taman megah pj,but smaller in scale la..so i thought it was those kinda hawker center..but its not..its like some normal airconditioned restaurant in somewhere in damansara...well that nite was the 1st time i had mutton ever since i was form 4 when i had lunch @ soofun's house one afternoon after schu...never liked mutton and never thought of trying..the mutton was cooked with some vege and soup and some taukee..not bad la..but damn filling and big serving..i had around 2 bowls of it...that nite's dinner was really heavy...went back home my mom said sunday wanna bring us out shopping..yay!!...






henna bi did for me...got the design from my makeup bag..haha..



that nite didnt sleep well..slept around 4 i think..dunno y..then next morning woke up around 8.30am..coz my mom said have to finish up all the housework only can go out...so no choice have to wake up damn early...after housework we had lunch @ a the mamak that near my house in kota kemuning that i always go..then we went pyramid..damn packed wei...took us so long to look for carpark...so anyways...saw a goggle's 3/4 jeans..like that alot but didnt buy coz my mom asked to shop around 1st..said go levi's take a look..my mom bought a bonia heel..she's really a big fan of bonia..every year surely will go there buy something..ya la she's damn rich de la..shoes also damn alot...like me..wakakaka....so anyways..finally got my own LEVI'S...hahahaha..finally got a straight cut jeans thats well fitted and long enough...hahaha..so freaking happy wei...then we went to ALDO...looked at the heels..me and my mom totally gone awed...hahaha..so damn nice wei the heels there..but damn high and kinda pricey la...minimum 4 inches high ler..i wear 2 inches also cant really walk comfortably ad..imagine 4 inches wei..but there' really nice...one day i must own one ALDO heels..4 inches high de..wakakkaka...then i also got myself a wristlet/pouch for clubbing or yamcha session..cheap cheap de can ad..coz i dun really want to spend too much on a pouch..thought of getting COACH wristlet de..but need to save la..i so damn heart COACH wei...their wristlet and hobo...god..totally fell in love it them...after pyramid went to taipan and giant to buy things...then went home and gone out again with dad to take dinner...slept quite early at nite coz the other didnt had much sleep..so thought wanna tebus balik..but early also around 1 like that only went to bed..was dozing off already..suddenly woke up by bi's call..he just woke up..he's sleeping habit and timing very different from us normal ppl de la..so we talked for awhile before he went out to find some food...lately he's been eating quite alot..like really alot..he made me promised him to cook carbonara pasta for him this weekend when i see him..and "force" me to buy BIG APPLES donuts..he aaa...aihz...hahaha...

my wristlet...


my darling...hahahaha

After the rain...here comes the sun!!!

new updates..wednesday after my mom came back from work..i left to bi's place...we watched The Italian Job...so cool man the mini cooper...hahaha...then went to had dinner..after dinner we went out to The Curve for something sweet..bi was really craving for sweet stuff...and on our way there jammed like hell..reached there and find carpark...around 9.30 only get to sit down and eat..went to Lan Kwai Fong..ordered some lychee ice thing and lemon coke..then went to find some other things to eat...walked here and there all around..at last ended up at Big Apples...so i bought half a dozen..thought wanna buy back something for his family...coz never buy anything for them before...anyways..we were lining up for our turns...then when reached the counter..i was still stonning there day dreaming bout nothing..just stared blankly at the donuts..then went i looked up the guy has been waiting to serve me.so ok lo..so when i started to order...choosed the 1st donut only...the kiasu lady infront of me told the person serving me.."hello..i'm here 1st",,,then ok lo..mah let him serve her 1st rite..and the thing is its not that i ASKED the guy to serve me 1st what..he himself waited for me..so anyways another guy took over..so when we were done at the front...we just walked infront to choosed other donuts la..then when i was telling the guy which one i wanted...the lady came infront of me and said "excuse me!!"..so i backed off a lil to let her past la..then shot me one look like she wants to pick a fight like that..kept staring at me...i was like..wtf is wrong with her man...i never ever once thought of cutting her que and all...i was just choosing my donuts thats all wei...wtf is wrong with all these ladies man..@ oldtown kopitiam that malay lady also like that...that wan aaa..really race and age discrimination wei...if i happens to be a slightly older lady...would she do that to me??i dont think so lo...and if i'm a malay gal at my age...would she do that???i seriously dont think so lo...wtf man...anyways after buying donuts we headed back home..bi cant wait to eat the donuts..he kinda gone mad on eatting..hahaha...so after reaching home and ate donuts...celine came down and said that she's going mcd with her mom...then we tagged along too...seriously bi ate like really really alot lo..then went home..cakap cakap again..bi did henna for me...while waiting for it i fell asleep..then around 4 something woke up to go washed up my leg then go sleep...

bi's work..but added some animation by his lecturer and now is on Zedge...





was sitting at Lan Kwai Fong when i took this pic...very nice view and xmas settings there..too bad my hp cant take everything down nicely...




dunno what bi did la. he took this with my hp..



woke up around 1 something..got ready then went out for lunch as i need to rush back to cheras before 4pm for my vocal class..wanted to had lunch in sunway but it was raining quite heavily..so at last we ended up at parade's pizzahut...around 3 only left there..but luckily managed to reach back around 3.35 lo..then only got msg from my teacher saying that class has to be canceled due to some emergency...so hang around in condo while waiting for yirui to come back...well lala came back too unexpectedly...then we messed up the whole room rummaging thru our clothes to find what to wear to maison...end result....


damn messy wei...lolz



then around 7 we all went out together to midvalley for dinner..sort of like celebrated lala's bday la...supposed to eat at Nandos..but it was really pack..so we went to Manhattan Fish Market..my 1st time there...not bad la...


while waiting for our food..







always bz on the phone....




simply snap nothing to do...coz they suddenly decided to all go midvalley..and i was bz cleaning up the mess in our room..so i just took my shorts and my heels..then there we went out...no time to wear nicely..



after dinner we went separate way..lala and victor went to jusco for movies as midvalley was super packed..then we three headed home to get ready for maison...piaowey,chernyuik and his gf and chinnlynn came to find us...we three dressed up together then off we went..again i left in such a hurry that i left something behind in my room..hahaha...so anyways..went to maybank to take cash...this piaowey aaa..drive so fast..kinda hard to catch up with his car la..then got lost on our way there..but still managed to reached la..so many ppl waiting outside when we reahced...waited for awhile then we entered lo..i was the last gal in out group to enter..that bouncer decided to played a prank on me which he thinks its really funny...as usual the ic checking la..



bouncer:"(shake head)"

me:"huh?"

bouncer:"cannot enter.."

me:"huh??"

bouncer:"tak boleh masuk.."

me:"why??"....(start to panic like shyt coz all of them entered ad and left me alone outside..)

bouncer:"(start to smile at me in a really funny way...guessed he enjoy that i looked freaked out..)..haha...hand pls..."

he thought that i would be really funny to play that prank and make that joke on me..well anyways managed to got into maison..then we got trouble with the tables we booked and all..everything like so messed up..and inside there was really freaking cold..me and chinnlynn was shivering there....after settled down..went outside to meet jenny..let the pics talk..

with bi...his face read ad..haha


the cannot-make-it look...after came back from dancing..haha..


better...


yum!!!!!!!!


with bday gal


bi me and piaowey..all face red red de except me...i looked normal..but i'm not..haha


lost sight of piaowey...


i looked best in this pic i think la..haha..well can barely control my facial expressions la...with cheng wei here..


with cheng wei and cher wei...she can really dance...

bi asked to leave at 2am..but i was having fun there..finally left @ 2.30..coz i really not well already..then on our way home..shyt happened wei...aint talking bout it here...bi we seriously have lots of memories together..hahaha..anyways it was really fun culbbing with them...danced our ass out..at least i did la..will post up more pics once i get others from rui...

Broken Heart

last nite i slept with a broken heart...and this morning i woke up with tears..suddenly a pang of guilty and sadness hit me real hard..somethings must have been really wrong...i had nitemares again...guess i'm back to those sleepless nites again..something's like pressing really hard on my chest,i cant breathe easily...i really hope to meet up with him asap..i dunno why but my heart keeps telling me that i must see him as soon as i can..as though something bad might happen...i dunno.maybe its me who has been thinking too much..i'm a person who tends to think too much at times..coz i used to pretended that nothing's wrong..and when i suddenly decided to face it only to realise that things had gone really out of hand...
now i'm only looking forward to this thursday..going maison to celebrate rui and jeffrey's bday..yea maybe i should just drink and forget bout everything...every once in a while i really need to let go off myself and rejuvinate before i start fighting again...i'm really tired...really really tired......

Choices

life is full of choices...choices are to be made to shape our life...life's not as easy as we think they are...obstacles are everywhere..so many different choices laid infront of you,waiting for u to choose...i never understand him..when i thought i have..god decided to play a huge prank on me by changing him to a totally different person..180degrees changes...i thought i can be strong to face everything...but when problem occurs..i felt so helpless towards everything...i feel like give up..but i know thats not the rite thing to do at all..and deep in heart i know no matter how long it takes, few months,a year, few years..i know i wont be able to forget bout him...heart broken..countless of tears has been shed for him...no matter what you said..we both know deep down inside we both just want each other no matter how determined you want to leave me and how angry and disappointed i am...i know u might read my blog,read bout all these..frankly..i have another blog which nobody knows..there i wrote down all my problems,my hatred,all my unhappiness..coz i know this blog is often visited by my close frens and you..and i thought by hiding stuff i wouldnt trouble u guys so much...but things got really out of hand lately that i no longer can handle them by myself...until the state that i no longer know what i want and who i am anymore...but one thing i trully know is no matter what i only want u to stay in my life..we both know this very well...
you smoke and drink to forget things...have u ever thought of how i feel behind all the stupid things you do??i dunno whats inside of you..but i'm telling you this..with all the things you do..i can do even more than you..i can smoke,drink and go clubbing every nite..get laid by other guys...but i choosed not to do all that...coz i know by doing that i will only hurt the both of us...i dunno why u keep saying that u tried but u cant change...i really feel like slapping you hard for choosing to smoke and drink in the 1st place...i really dunno what to say to you anymore...
i'm so used to the feeling that now i'm starting to get the hang of it...yea thanx to you of what i've became today..but to let you know that...i'll never regret of the choices i made..ever since u betrayed my trust for you...things hasnt been the same..and things will never be the same as last time..like how we used to be..it will never be that way anymore...i cant promise you that we'll stay with each other forever..coz when i gave you the chance to build back the trust for you..yet u go destroy it again and again...i dunno whether i can still rely on you anymore...all the promises u made to me that day after our big fight..i thought everything will starting to turn okay..but guess i was wrong...the same problem keep coming back again and again...maybe to you i'm not that important anymore that you heart tells you to drink to forget bout me...
now that things can never turn back to its original state...i'll still hang on to what we have between us..as long as i can..thats the best thing i can do for the both of us now..maybe til one day u would really change back to a better person,maybe u will not..maybe i would wake up one day and realise that i should move on with my life without you...but i try not to jump to that decision anytime soon..coz i know all i want is you..and i think i still can hang on for quite awhile..
all i can do now is to pray hard to god to let you succeed in changing away all the bad habits...hope my prayer is heard by god and hope it will be fulfilled soon....

I wish...I hope...

i wish i have lots of money..
i wish i can own a house of my own,decorate my house...
i wish i have a xmas tree..i dream of having one of my own where i can decorate it with lots of lights and ornaments...
i wish to go taiwan...
sometimes i wish i could let go of everything,forget bout everything and just leave to somewhere i like...
i hope that from now on my relationship will go on smoothly...
i wish to have a car of my own...drive to places i wanna go...
i wish to have a camera of my own..to take down memories and lovely places and stuff...
i wish i were from a rich family...
i wish i'm smarter...
i wish that my parents are not so strict towards me...
i wish to just get drunk now and forget bout everything...
i wish that there will be no obstacles in my coming life(totally impossible)
i wish i didnt said the things just now...
i wish i can shop whenever,wherever i want...
i wish i dun need to worry bout money all the most of the time when i'm outside having fun...
i wish i'd take the cigarette from ah soon that day...
i wish i'm diagnose with some incurable cancer and just die without knowing it...
i wish i'm emotionless...
i wish i was a partyqueen, party like there's no 2mr...
i wish i could just hit someone rite now...
i wish i knew how to drift...and drift up and down the mountains now...
i wish i'm a worthless piece of shyt...so that i can do whatever i want and nobody would care...
i wish i could leave this country...
i wish i can change hp...
i wish that i can have a coach hobo,wristlet
i wish.....

its all nothing but a pile of words in a blog...
i really miss baby alot...baby never fails to put a smile on my face everytime i hug baby...

Again and again and again...

all i wanted is to be treated nicely..treat me with all ur heart..is that so much to ask for??if u didnt have the heart for me..please just tell me..u know with u saying :" i dunno anymore"...do u know how irresponsible u are??u think u can just avoid everything and push everything aside with saying that to me??u think i'll accept that as an answer???i'm really mad now..if u dun want me anymore..just tell me immediately..stop dragging me along if u dun want me in the 1st place.i really dunno now...what u want exactly??..i'm heart broken again......and i'm sick of it...

Confused

just a few simple sentenses..i've been thinking hard..real hard..i wonder..whats on the top of my priority list in my life??i'm already nearing 20 years of age..and i know i shouldnt be wasting more time on stupid things..things that dont even worth me putting my time and my effort on..i havent been really honest with myself all these time..keep making myself to believe that love is everything...but now i realise..its not..its just a mere feeling..yea love is blind..but can love feed u and give u money??sad to say they cant..u cant just survive on love..like i said..its just a feeling..when u have it,u felt like u have everything u ever needed in the world...but when u lose it,ur left with nothing...nothing at all..just EMPTINESS...unlike friendships..if u really lucky to find a few sincere frens..just a few will do..they will be there for u whenever u need them.and best thing of all..no matter what an enemy u both were..as time passes..one day u both meet up..eventually u both will be frens again..thinking of what happened few years back were so childish and foolish...in the end..no matter what happened u will still have a bunch of frens that will stick closely to u thru the good and hard times..MONEY...i'm sick of feeling poor..being asked to spend wisely and all...its really sad to say that whenever i go shopping i see things i really adore..but when i take a look at the pricetag..i just put the clothes back on to its place,take another good look of it and just walk of like that...MONEY...just a piece of paper with a value..but it can make a hell lot of a difference to a person..and i can say that...with lots of money i'll definately be much more happier...if i could trade a caring but not so rich family with a rich but cold hearted family...i would...i seriously would..coz everything i ever wanted comes with a great price..and i need lots of money to do and get what i wanted...i keep thinking..just to realise that everything i do now..in the end also comes into contact with MONEY..i need to study hard in order to earn good money in future...and with money i can live the way i want...u see...all in all..in the end it all sums up to money..now u see..how important money is...
a person who's trully disappointed from inside out..wont rely on things that are not reliable...empty promises...i rather rely on myself..get a good education can earn big money..yea i'm materialistic..i dare to admit that coz thats what my final aim is...thats what my life is all about...
after all i've said..i'm still really confuse..maybe everything is equally important...everything is worthless when u dont have money and money is worthless when u dont have a drive in ur life like love,frenship and all...i guess i just came back to the starting point..

Thanx guys..

this post is to thank those who stick by me during the tough times...
Yirui:seriously..i owed u so much..the past few weeks...even ur in taiwan u still sms me and all..we've been thru the tough path of our own in our relationship..i hoped i was there for u at times u need accompany and a listener...worried for u when u went maison and all...but at last cy eu all was there for u...those are reallly trustable frens and u know u can rely on them...thanx alot for the clothes...and the time we spent together shopping the other day..fetched me out somemore...not forgetting that u went to TXN with jeffrey to keep me accompany although we've walked thru the whole event like 3-4 times..and waited for papa to come back from sunway only left...and thanx for talking to me on the phone that nite when stuff happened...hope ur coping well with everything..and another thing..if a guy is not worth waiting...dun waste ur time..i'm sure there is another better one outside awaits u...
Yik Ling:thanx for being there for me during my hard times..i realise that ever since after finals were over and after the genting trip,we are closer than before...we seldom talk to each other much bout our lives..but lately i've got to know bout u more...and when things werent rite for me at all..just a simple call from u really makes things looked better for me..ur call really warmed my heart..i was really touched that at times like this i really do have frens that are genuinely care for me...wish u all the best on all the upcoming exams..
Angela:well u were there too when i was going thru a rough time...at least u offer a hand of comfort..and really sorry that i couldnt support u the other day as i had event to attend and all...hope u would understand..will catch up with u when college reopens...hope to see u soon...
KeanWai:well..this guy i never seen him in person before...we got to know each other from MSN n frenster...he was there to chat with me when i was really helpless and depressed..all i know bout him is that he's a guy from my college and he's from kuantan...he reallly knew all the shyts that happened during my rough times...its really nice to talk to u..hope to get to know u better next time...
to all those out there whom do care bout me..like cy eu and jeslin and choong han,soofun..thanx alot for caring even though u guys just comfort me thru words and messages in my cbox..but thats what kept me going during that time...
i've been thinking extremely alot lately..bout what am i going to do with myself and my future...to all the obstacles..thanx for appearing in my life..coz u made me a different person,i'm stronger now...and i've learned to see things differently now...to the person who tried to be a 3rd party and dont even put me in ur eyes...go to hell ok????pls la woman...ur married with a daughter and a husband..so stay loyal with it ok??i seriously dont respect those that already know that guy is attached and still wanna put a leg into it...thanx to u..becoz of u i've became so insecured and lost confidence in myself and the trust i have in him...but now i'm stronger...
i may not be as polite or as decent as i would be before..but i'm telling to those that trying to mess with me and my life...dont even think bout it...

Hatred,anger,pain...

so long didnt update already..was bz with TXN..plus bi's house's internet connection got prob and i couldnt blog there as i dunno the password for their wireless...seldom at home..was sick...plenty stuff happened...anyways was back in cheras last last wednesday,coz the following day got vocal class..woke up in the morning to find that i had sore throat..kept drinking water and all..didnt really ate much coz i was alone then n just lazy to go out buy lunch..somehow sore throat made me loose my appetite on any kinds of food..so i ate bread for the whole day..went for class from 4.30 til 6pm..guess my bloof sugar level was kinda low that time and wasnt feeling too well...nearly fainted during class and i scared i my teacher like hell...i told me i wasnt feeling well so we just went thru some new songs together,sight-reading way...then suddenly i felt that i'm going to faint so i stopped singing and just cover my face with my hands..my teacher looked up and she was in total shocked...she said my face turn purple and then white..i looked so pale that she asked me to sit down and rest..but after awhile i was alrite...continued with my class..walked back to my house after that..it was raining quite heavily then but all i wanted just to get home quickly...so i didnt care bout the rain n just walked over.waited for an hour plus then bi reached to take me over to his place...coz the following week is TXN already so i just hoped that i could lend a hand or something or just dont trouble him to fetch up and down from cheras..that nite didnt slept at all..bz talking whole nite..only slept like 8am the next morning..

we went mcd for supper/breakfast @ 4 something 5 in the morning...


bi's coffee and sausage mcmuffin...he had two sets of it..really a big eater

playing with the cam

bz eating and lazy to layan me

playing with bi's cap..i wasnt eating so nothing to do...i looked funny...

on the way home after that...

bi was supposed to go to sunway in the morning ar 9 something to meet up with his frens to discuss bout their assignment..but in the end his grandpa took the car and lost his way in pj so didnt came back in time..in the end bi didnt go..instead he slept at home..then around afternoon when i woke up to find that he was sleeping in his sis's room..so i woke him up for his team meeting...throughout the weekend nearly spend most of our time at the car workshops in sunway doing the stuff for upcoming TXN...its like the Racingfit is like out 2nd home..lolz..serious k..no joke...but anyhow i still managed to shop..bought a torquise color heels..

anyways on monday bi had class and need to do car stuff..so i went to find rui...in the morning before her piano class we went for breakfast @ Old Town in taipan..i was sick then so after ordering and settled down..i took tissue and started blowing my nose.then the bloody malay woman sitting at the next table beside me went:

malay woman:"excuse me,we're eating."(giving me those bloody annoying look)

me:"oh sorry."

i mean i apologized just for being polite..but that stupid bloody malay woman acting like she's so high class and all speaking english to me...i wondered why i even apologized in the 1st place..its a public place,and i can do whatever i want..i was sick and ran out of tissue..and my nose was so runny..he husband just sat there and kept quiet...wtf man these kinda ppl...if she dislike ppl smoking then can she just say "excuse me..we're eating can u dont smoke??"wtf man..i was so pissed off the whole day...she totally spoilt my mood for the whole day...not mentioning that lately i wasnt really in good mood and in good situation..and yet that day i finally feeling alrite and she had to spoilt my mood for me???!!!! she thinks that she owns that place or something...pls la woman..this is a public place and not ur house ok...its not like i was blowing to her or facing her or what...i totally cover half of my face with the tissue..so pa pai man these kinda ppl..if so pa pai then just reserve the whole restaurant to ur own la stupid...and they're so happily eating their breakfast @ 9 something 10 in the morning..dun need to work and goyang kaki while still getting paid...sorry but these kinda ppl really pissed me off like shyt...yea i'm racist..but only to these kinda ppl that expect the government to take care of them without having to work and still get paid...hello...we're paying the taxes and ur actually using our money ok???seriously this whole country is hopeless..i swear to myself..one day i'm going to leave to other country and never to come back when i have the ability to do so...

we went to midvalley and the garden..wore the new heels that i bought for TXN...hurt like shyt when i wore for like near an hour...bought pressie for ling and shop hangkai around lo..but i didnt spend much except for ling's pressie and our lunch @ Madam Kwan's..full like hell...seriously the garden have nothing much to shop lo..all expensive and branded stuff..so branded that i've never even heard of it before..call me jakun or whatever u like but thats me...u dun need to wear branded stuff to looke nice and trendy...before going back to rui's house we went Cat Whisker's..didnt see anything i like there..plus its kinda pricey also...after that bi picked me up and we went for dinner

midvalley's xmas deco..

the garden

butterflies...really nice...love them..

my baby...mixed golden retriever..bi's grandpa found near his house de..

she's really naughty..but same time very good girl..always ready to pose for the camera...

TXN

team Yakuza

team Imperial

camwhore in the car coz nth to do while waiting...

Street Genetics

ricky polishing the tyres

i heart jazz....=)

sad banner..so small..it was supposed to be 9-10 cars long...they even spelled it wrongly...

ah soon eating nuggets..lolz..tried to teach me to smoke...haha

bling blings...

love the flower motives

team street..mother club of street genetics

three big thrust with huge banner

dunno who's car..i just simply snaped

I.C.E.

MLOC..police theme..

i heart fairlady...=)

teamcity..

teamcity..1st day..look at the bumper wei...

posing with bi's ride

after event ended..waiting for other members..

sponsors for TS and SG

Street Genetics 2nd day...we had other plans..we bought 20m of cloth and drew graffiti on it as our banner...even put lights under the cars..our dress code for the day was white top with jeans and tie and shoes...didnt managed to take any pic of our outfits though

drawn by Kevin SG-03

i just found out that the ribbon maker spelled it wrongly on the ribbons too...it was supposed to be Japanese Car Owners Club...

free model...

teamcity -2nd day...

goodyear stage..

judges signing the banner

bi's trophy...

sunday afternoon woke up then went out for lunch with bi's family...then after dinner bi brought me out to summit to eat wraps and watch Enchanted..been wanting to watch that movie and finally we got the time...after movies we went for pool in ss15'..went home after that..