time flies..

its been a few days since i last post something here..still having my holidays..but not really going anywhere..last friday..i drove out to mamak with my dad for lunch...i parked the car behind a 4WD jeep..while we were going to leave that restaurant..i saw the jeep reversed n hit my dad's car..well..i just saw that car reversed..n suddenly it stopped with a big jerked..i wasnt really sure whether they hit my dad's car..but i just told my dad anyway...my dad quickly went out to see..n to stop that car..that jeep tried to run away..he thought nobody saw what happened..but he was foolish enough to think that way..quite an old man..construction site worker or mayb contractor..he had ample of space infront for him to move his car out and doesnt even need to reverse..and between my car n his car there was also enough of space...well..everything settled with him paying my dad 100 bucks although he refused to pay at 1st...
saturday...went to genting with my baby loukung..with teamcity for the 3rd time..it was really cold that day...although at gotong jaya it was still ok...windy n cooling..but when we went up to genting..foggy til cant see the road infront..when i came out from the car..my hair also became wet..haha..it was really nice there..after that went to visit baby loukung's aunty n uncle..after that went to 1st world cafe for buffet dinner..the food there wasnt really nice..but still adible...i would say its so so..okay okay only...not cheap also ler..35bucks per person..lots of varieties but not really delicious la..after dinner went to hangkai with baby loukung's and his frens..then went down to starbucks to have a drink..the weather there was really really nice..although it was really cold..but i like it..hahaha..glad that i went there with him..but of coz..i used my primary schu gathering as an excuse..plus i can go home later..they never called n asked me what time i will come home..left genting around 10.20 like that..reached home 5 minutes before 12...haha..after reached home i quickly went up to my room..then went downstairs to brush teeth again n faster went bac to my room..scared that they'll ask me questions..haha..
sunday...i thought that i didnt have the chance to go out with baby for dinner coz last nite so late only came home..didnt want to ask for so much..but then...in the afternoon..i kinda wanna give things a try..so i told my mom that the tuition centre i attended last time got annual dinner..so she asked me to go since my dad was at melacca..so she dont need to cook dinner..at night...my baby brought me to pyramid's zen for dinner..the place is really nice..the food was very nice too..we didnt ordered much..just a udon set,teriyaki chicken n one tempura temaki roll..cost him 56 bucks...so expensive..we planned to go kimgary after that..but we were full so didnt..and baby dont let me share the bill with him..aihz..so expensive..but i promised him that next time we going to kimgary for lunch or dinner..i will take the bill...and i've bought a new bag for myself..big enough...kinda cheap also...not really nice..but i think it'll be very usefull though..hahaha..
monday...my dad work second shift this week..which means he goes to work in the afternoon after lunch..but god helped me..he went down to kl with my uncle on some business trip..then after that he will go to work straight..so i went out to baby loukung's house for lunch...didnt dare to hang out at his place for too long coz the workers will come my house to do the toilet..so i went bac around 2 something..waited for so long..they said they wont be coming..saying that will come the next day...nvm...today...tuesday..my dad had to take over his colleugue's shift so go to work in the morning..til night only coming bac...so i went to baby's house for lunch again...this time i came bac around 1 somethin...waited since the morning til the afternoon...my uncle's house doing renovation..keep drilling n knocking nonstop..my house just directly next to his...so noisy that i cant even take a nap..so i woke up to do house work..mopped the floor..hurt my fingers when i was mopping the floor..the mop's handle kept rubbing my thumb..n the skin peeled off..when i was mopping upstairs..i hit the comp table.the edges are really sharp..so hit my left hand's 2nd n middle finger..bleeding too..but just for awhile...in the end the workers didnt come too...and i dont even bother much bout it ad..after mopping the floor..i rest for awhile while watching tv..at 6 i went to prepare dinner as i told my mom that i will cook spaggheti today...half way just right after i done cutting the meat..my suddenly feel hard to breathe..my neck pain like someone hit me using something hard..after that i started to see things turn black.my mom came bac that time..luckily i managed to washed my hand..n quickly walked to the guest room donwstairs to lie down..suddenly i saw things all black..i hit the door..i tried to stand still n balance myself holding to the door knob...but my body suddenly just became weak n i collapsed..when i could start to see things abit...i woke up n went to the bed..i lied down for awhile..around 10 minutes..thought that i'm fine..i woke up n went to kitchen to continue with my work..half way cookin the pasta..i felt the same seconds before i fainted earlier on..i quickly went to take a sit in the living hall..it was really close before i was about to faint again..well of coz..i kena lecture n nagged from my mom..saying that i didnt had enought rest n my sleeping time not proper..didnt take breakfast n all those nonsense..till now i didnt faint anymore..just say that today isnt my day..so many things happened..aihz..hope i'm fine n nth serious..

holidays again..

so long since i wrote something here...anyways its sem break for me now..something that i dun even lookng forward to. rite at this moment..some of my friends already bac in their howntown..some already went to holiday...mayb still in the plane or just arrived at that place...well..i's stuck at home...it wasnt that bad til at the same time my house is undergoing some minor renovation...renovating the toilets..changing the tiles.two days of knocking n drillin the floor..making hell of a noise in my house..wanna sleep also cannot..wanna do anyting also cannot..so dun even think about going out..aihz..sometimes i just dun understand...my mom...took mc coz she wasnt feeling well..so we all think that someone who's not feeling well supposed to stay at home n rest isnt it???but guess what..she went down to kl with my dad..n after lunch..she even went for facial..this kinda person..i seriously dont know what to say about her..talking back bout how i spend my weekend last week..at least something that i'm happy about..until something happened..last sunday..went up to genting with my family n two of my friends..my dad's company's family day...i had nearly a great time there...lots of fun i had with my frens..but of coz it was really tiring partly bcoz we slept late the nite b4 going genting...n queuing up for the rides was really time consuming...my advise..never ever go genting during public holidays of schu holidays...i ended up having my leg swollen...coz i stand too long...around 5 something..we left genting..by cable car..well..shocking experience...the queue actually started from the cable car station...reaches in the hotel area..well..my household's prime time bitch...showed her talent at that moment...which is sickening..gracious god...as if she is some VIP that she cant even queue n have to make such a big fuss out of everything...aihz...just after coming down from genting...she fell sick..weak body...no comment...all i could do was just to shake my head continuouesly..thats all for the genting trip..too much for me to say...
tuesday...went out with my hubby..to 1u n the curve n cineleisure..in search for my schu bag for next sem..need a bigger bag that could put umbrella n my books all..i have many things..hahaha...well..ended up not getting anything..but we had a great time with each other..went to take sticker photo again..it was really fun..n this time all the pics we took was really lovely..love it so much..hehe..its so sweet of my hubby to buy me a pepper spray coz next year onwards i will be staying outside n need to walk to college everyday...it will be dangerous so he bought me one for ermergency use..so sweet of him..and it wasnt cheap...coz him quite alot as its a good quality n good brand wan..
this saturday going up to genting again..this time with my hubby and teamcity...just for the fun of it..haha..coz i really want to go there with him..although this time going will be the third time going with the same ppl..but i dun care...haha..then sunday...he's going to bring me to zen for dinner..n to spend some time with me..before he goes hongkong..

another past...didnt did much..as i was preparing for my finals..my first paper will be moral studies..this friday...havent finish studying yet..haha..well..for the past weekend..my mom wasnt here at home..Hurray!!!!so peaceful and quiet..sometimes she's just pain in the ass..making so much noice n fuss about everything she lay her hands on..haha..sorry but too bad..i'm just telling the truth..2 nites back i was rushing to finish up my oa assignment..my group frens just passed it to me like on last thursday..and need to summarize so many pages of articles..but luckily my house was quiet enough for me to finish up my own stuff..well..good news for me..my new handphone is one the way liao..haha..although its a secondhand phone..but its quite new..just a 3 and a half month phone only...w810..on the market the selling price is around rm1100...but i got it for 800..just hope that nothing wrong with the hp lor..haha..the hp will reach my bro 2mr or latest by wednesday..n by next week i'll be able to lay my hands on my new hp liao..so happy..hehehe..today my dad left his car home so i could drive out myself to have lunch..so fun la..without having my parent with me when i'm driving..felt relax..hehe..although i was fetching my bf..but it was alright..he was worried n wanted to accompany me..went to a mamak near my hse..so long didnt drive car ad..it was fun..just now after i came bac from his house..tidied my house n cook rice for my cats,was rice for 2nite's poridge..then my cat..kept making noice asking for food..aiyo..then accidentally smashed a porcelain mug..near to my cat..he got terrified..then sped off to the hall ad..haha..then only came bac to the kitchen like 20 minutes later..dun even dare to make a noice til i talked to him..showed me a pity face as if he did something wrong..hahaha..my mom's coming bac any moment now..haha..oh yea..next week end going gentitng oh..with my family and relative n my buddies oh..so happy...hahaha

a typical day of my life

today i'm back at home again...most of classes in college ended ad..finals also coming...my 1st paper will be in two weeks time..havent even started studying yet...dun have the mood to study also...haha..lazy people like me always find all sorts of excuses...haha..well..my past week was quite interesting...monday..went back to hostel at nite...nothing much happened la...just went to angela's room to find them after i was back in campus..tuesday...morning got class lor..moral studies..thought the lecturer will give us tips for the finals on that day..purposely so semangat go for class..but in the end just presentation and some lecture..after that aa...went for brunch with my yirui they all in hostel cafeteria..we always have bruncg instead of breakfast of lunch..we thought that by combining both meals together we will be able to eat lesser,spend lesser and loose weight...so naive of us..haha..but what happened that day was after yikling came back from her piano lesson,we went out together coz she wanna see doctor..on our way out..we went to mamak..ate lunch...haha..big eatter lor me and yikling..haha..sounds scary rite??haha..after that went to giant to hangkai for awhile coz yikling wanna buy contact lens..after that eddy fetched us go to the clinic...well..yirui and eddy was late for class that day...eddy went but not yirui..she said if she's late for more than 15 minutes..she wont bother to go ad..so she was with us lor...after that we had class in comp lab...did our accessment for oa lor...stupid subject i would say...haha..at nite we all went to jiarou's room to hang around..watched a few hongkong series in my comp then yikling said she wanna go bac to our room ad...tired and drowsy coz of the medicine wor...so i was still with my frens..hang around..went back a lil later...dunno y i couldnt sleep til around 1am everyday...so i stayed up to surf the internet...i was just thinkin bout what am i going to do on the next day as i dun even have a single class in wednesday...then my loukung offer to come find me...so the next morning i woke up..got ready,went to practise my violin as i have group session on thursday..around 10 like that loukung came to pick me up to his place..on our way back he said he felt like eating breakfast at mcd...so we went to the one in our area..kota kemuning...ordered two sausage mcmuffin set for the both of us..after we were done..he said he wanna eat chicken mcd pulak..such big eatter..haha..after that went back to his hse lor..his grandparents and his sis went back to penang...his parents working...left us alone with his maid,,quite peaceful la...haha...we then watched zorro 2..very nice..haha..tot wanna make pancake for tea time...but we were too full..hours later we were back to cheras as he had promised me to teman me go pasar malam and have dinner together..but unfortunately it rained..so we went to pizzahut instead..after dinner went to jalan jalan at pasar malan for awhile lor..since we were so full after dinner..after that loukung had to go back to do his homework..aihz..miss him so much...in hostel..me and yikling went to shower together...we came back from shower..only to realise that i accidentally locked ourself outside..without clothings.only a towel.haha..so went to find jiarou they all..ask for help...only got bac to our own room an hour later..thursday aaa...hmmm,..went to class like usual...during my violin group session..i panicked and screwed up most of my performance...both hands was shaking...cant even hold the violin and the bow properly...hope nobody noticed that...hope i will get better grades than last sem..aihz...then at nite went to yirui hse..b4 that went to 1u..tumpang eddy's car as he went there to pick his princess from work..pity him..saw our films and arts appreciation lecturer and his wife at 1u...this yirui aaa..ahaha..saw our lecturer..just point at him then kept laughing so hard..mr patrick and his wife dunno whether to say hi to us or to run away as fast as they can...so funny..i bet alot of people must have tot that we this bunch of gals are crazy..kept laughing so hard and laughing like crazy people all the time..haha...went back to yirui's hse..painted our nails.did mask, chatted and all...a girls' nite out..very fun ler.haha...so here comes friday...sien lor..nothing much also..went to class as usual...then my dad went to coll to fetch me home..2mr cant see my loukung..he will be going to melacca with teamcity..but sunday can see him..my parents going down to melacca to visit my grandma..i insisted to stay back...haha...miss u bi...aihz..and sorry for making u come bac all the way from bangsar just to bring me the contact lens solution from ur hse to me..and made ur car's airfilter to spoil...and also got scolded from ur dad..sorry..i didnt know...i tried to stop u from coming back...but ur hp pending..and i thought that u go to subang area for dinner only...i didnt know u went to bangsar...sorry...aihz...

sien to the max...

aiyo..so sien at home....dunnno what to do..my 2nd sem going to be over ad...that means finals are coming..yet i'm as lazy as always to start studying...just cant get rite into the mood of studying...aihz..yesterday i finished all my hsework..2day got nth to do...so sien..wanna go out but he's not free...somemore told me that he'll be away end of next month, to hongkong for vacation...january only coming bac...i dunno what am i supposed to do when's he's not around for that one week or so...die lo...plus its also sem break at that time..most of my frens wont be arouns either...most of them going bac to their hometown..one of them going to japan for vacation...holiday sux la..aihz...2mr til the coming friday is course selection week...havent even make up my mind on what subjects to take next sem..aihz...havent discuss with all my frens..aihz..i hate weekends and holidays!!!!!aihz...
sometimes also dunno y i get angry...can say that i get angry for nth...just not really in a good mood..mood swing aaa??but my period just over...how come ler...aihz...like he said..i'm always so stubborn...always want everything to go according to my way...but my frens...they are all independent individuals...sometimes they do things might be abit delaying or hard to make decision...aihz..no offence u guys...sometimes after i got angry...i tried to think back of the reason y did i angry...surprisingly..i couldnt find any valid reasons to be angry at...i'm stupid,stubborn,foolish,selfish and arrogant...funny that y i still have a bunch of great frens in schu now..i wonder..aihz...sorry guys..didnt mean all that i've done..aihz..for most of the times..i feel guilty over getting angry at ppl around me for nth..for so many times i told myself not to make the same mistakes again and again..yet...here i am..feeling guilty over the all the things that i've done..i thank him alot..for being so understanding and patient with me all these while..i know i'm bad tempered and stubborn and all..aihz..and my frens..i know they must have been wondering y i always get angry at them for nth..sorry guys..i myself also dunno y i get angry like that...everytime after i got over with my anger..and thought back the reasons of y i get angry but i couldnt get any...i feel ashamed...of what i've done...shame on me..speechless on my behaviour....

so so so long.......

always see my frens so "rajin" write blog..at 1st it was kinda fun...but as time goes by..i start to get lazy and have been loaded up with assignments,choir concert and all...now having a short holiday...deeparaya holidays...didnt really like it...coz holidays means i'm stuck at home with houseworks and my parents...although can still go out...but i find that when i'm staying at hostel..i have more freedom..can go out whenever i want without telling anyone..its not that i dont wanna let them know...as if they will let me go out...haha...and one more thing..dun really want to lie to them..its not that i want to do so..but i have no choice...not all parents are open minded to le their kids have bf or gf nowdays...really dont know whats on their mind...i'm not really young ad..18 years old..but i'm not allowed to hav bf til i'm over college...at least that was what my mom told me..but who would be so "obbedient" and actually do as their parents said rite...sorry to them..they cant accept it...not that i dont wanna let them know...aihz..well my bro said that my existing hp still in tiptop condition..need not to buy a new one anytime soon..guess i'm still stuck with it..too bad for me..i'm not like those rich kids where they can change their hp just like changing their clothes..those gadgets arent cheap...not everyone could afford it..well..i should say that i'm one of those lucky ones..to have a hp..compared to those really poor kids somewhere out there..so i shouldnt be complaining anything rite...but humans are beings that are hard to please...u give them one cm,they want one inch instead..humans are greedy..no doubt bout it..
stuck at home really sux..i find that i didnt even miss my home,not even a lil' tiny bit of it..i just come home every weekend for the sake of washing my clothes..thats all..hostel's bed is more comfortable than mine at home..so please give me a reason why i should miss my home...oh yea there's another reason..staying at home means i'll spend less...and i'll have more extra money by the end of the month..but ever since i started college..my spendings has been more than what i get for my month expenses...trying so hard to save money..but there'll always a devil side of me..asking me to buy this buy that...haha..well..i'm a shopaholic..a poor shopaholic..haha..sounds sad case rite..well it really is and it sux..aihz..
ever wonder that u know what kinda person u are..then suddenly one day when ur exposed to something new..u found that u love that thing so much but its like so not u to do those kinda thing??thats how i felt lately...i always thought that i'm just another plain gal around..like music,being a goody goody girl and tries her best to study well and score good results just like how her parents wants her to be..but i found out that i love exciting things..speeding in a car, go clubbing..dance hip hop dancing..sings...i thought i was hallucinating stuff..but i find that i really like music alot..before i enter college..i was wondering if i will just give up one day when i find out that that wasnt what i always wanted..my lecturers told me to change course coz they find that i dun have what it takes to be a musician...but now..i enjoyed all my choir classes..although sometimes it sux..i love to sing..i like it alot when i have the violin on my shoulders, my heart telling me to play all those beautiful notes and music..now i already found what i trully want...music..once,my relative asked me to consider becoming a performer..like those famous musicians thats goes around the world to perform on their own solo concerts and stuff like that..i think thats really cool..but i dunno where to start..my bro's fren,so happen to be my senior in college..got the contract as the strings coordinator for david tao's concert in m'sia..which happening this saturday...its really cool u know..i always admire people that plays music..they look so charming playing their instruments..strutting their stuff on the stage..totally cool..how i wish someday i could be like that...haha..well i just love to day dream..hahaha..hard work does pays off..i should start working harder to get to my aim rather than just sitting around day dream bout my future..haha..
the other day when i was at my baby's place..we'd mentioned bout when can i bring him home to meet my parents..god i really wish that parents would be understanding enough for me to have a bf..its not like when i hav a bf i'll neglect my studies..well i got a few As in my last sem's finals..aihz..i really want them to know bout my baby..they've met him b4..but i bet they dun really have good impression on him..but dont judge a book by its cover..he's really a sweet,caring,loveing and understanding guy..although he didnt do well in his studies in secondary schu..but now he's going after his passion..art...god bless everyone with at least one good point..for me its music..for him its art..just hope that my parents could be understanding enough..ask me to bring my bf home to meet them..i'm really tired of the days that me and my baby think of all ways and all lies to tell my parents so that we can go out together..i sux u know..aihz..god please help me...aihz..

yet...just another day...

its been a while since i write blog...has been busy with coll...so much had happened...hmm...yesterday went to see doctor with my daughters...haha...yirui,yilking and angela...all also sick except for yikling...me had diarrhea..yirui's leg pain...ankle and knee...angela's neck got something..haha..i also dunno how to say la..just like got two lil balls shape thing swollen inside..the doctor said its infected...dunno y that can happened also la...then this yirui...went into the clinic...at 1st when in campus so semangat asked me go see doctor coz i got cirit birit since monday...then she said since i'm going then she also wanna take a look at her leg..leg pain for so long also dun wanna tell her parents...then when reached the clinic...suddenly said dun wanna see ad wor...haha...dunno y she so scared of meeting the doctor..as if the doctor is like a huge monster that will bite her head off...but at last i managed to convinced her to go let the doctor check her leg...it was quite a fun experience..to go see doctor together with my frens..haha...like go shopping like that..haha...anyways i'm already recovered now..but still gotta finish up the antibiotics...n keep drinking 100plus..haha..bought 3 bottles of it...
just in this one week plus time..so many things happened...time flies i would say...just in the blink of an eye...i'm already studying my 2nd sem...middle of 2nd sem...haha..in 2 weeks time we're gonna hav a concert...this time we're not singing gloria vivaldi...instead we're going to sing one japanese children song..named ho taru koi...keep singing ho ho ho in that song....like santa claus only..haha..then got two african spiritual song..something like that la..haha..then got the last two movements of the gloria vivaldi..cum sancto spiritu and quoniam tu solus sanctus...sounds weird rite??haha..classical song...then another english song..children song...take these wings..oh yea still got another classical piece...locus iste..that song..like swearing and scolding ppl bad words..haha..but its a very nice song..something like the song that mr bean sings in the church..the alleluia..very peaceful song..gotta buy new uniform again...aihz..hav to spend money again..this time hav to buy a button up shirt with collar...any colour except for black...so hard to find la...that day went to leisure mall with yikling and yirui to find..only got one shop selling..but the cutting like fits fot the aunties wan..haha..so didnt buy lor..plan to go find in pyramid 2mr..coz after our class at 1.30..me n yikling and angela all going to yirui's hse got steamboat dinner...mooncake festival mah..haha..so can celebrate 2gether,,my 1st time celebrating with frens..haha..patrick going to join us also..hope it will be fun lor..but b4 that...going to pyramid to hangkai and find shirt..gotta buy mascara and the lash curler thing..see how lor..coz now trying my very best to save alot of money to buy new hp...my 3200 cacated ad...aihz..so nowadays really control my spendings like hell..so many things that i wanna buy but so lil money..aihz...that day i eyed on a make-up pouch,,hello kitty wan..but not really girlsih la..black wan with purple glitter and butterfiles..so nice..but hav to save money for my hp..so hav to tahan on not to buy lor...so sad la..aihz...how i wish my family is rich and i can have more allowance..hmm...aihz...but good thing is i'm going to hav my very own violin lor next sem..muahaha..so happy...haha..and a new hp on the way...yea...but its gonna burn a big hole out of my purse this time..aihz...

aihz...

bored...alone in hostel room...my room mate went out to temple ad..hmm..so sien...another week soon to past by again...time flies..ppl getting older...memories???what shall happen to them as time past just like a blink of an eye???yesterday was wednesday...here at taman connought got pasar malam every wednesdays...went down with yikling to buy vege...our vege that we bought last week all turned yellow n spoil ad...coz someone who's irresponsible didnt close the fridge door properly after using...so not cold then all the stuff melted n turned sour n smelly...such an awful sight..that day monday..we had our dance class again...learnt the dance movements for 3 songs ad...but abit of all 3 la..hehe..after the class my whole body aching...soon after i will loose all my flabby stomach n become toned stomach..good news for me..haha..
hope to get my new violin as soon as possible...fed up with my existing one...actually not mine also..belonged to my cousin sister..she lent it to me just to get me started before i buy my own violin...tried so hard to please everyone..but its just tough u know...aihz...ppl are always demanding..asking for more than what i can giv..sometimes just makes me wanna give up...fed up with my house...just fed up n dun wanna go bac to that stupid freaking house of mine...tried so hard to...but what did i get from them??nth..got scolded n nagged instead...i'm not asking for ppl to thank me or something like that...they just wont appreciate the things ppl do for them..always so demanding...ppl always say that guys n gals are now equal...but to me..it never is n never will....just so disappointed n heart-broken with them...giv them stuff during theri bday...just one thank u n then chucked it into a drawer in the kitchen...never ever look at it again after that day...i'm very doubtful that they even know that its even existed there...but when their beloved child giv them a simple card...they put it on my piano instead...sometimes its not that i wanna be over sensitive over small matters like that..but i cant help thinking that i'm just a piece of shit to them...
so i promised myself...after i graduated n found a job n a few months of steady income..i'll leave that freaking mad house...every month just giv them some money to keep their mouth shut...since they tot that they're so great n so honourable just because they giv me an education...f***k off i would say to u...u dun deserve anything from me except for ur filthy money...i've had enough of all that u gave me..n i dun want anymore...i know i'm better off without u...better stay with those that i love..like the to important "hims" in my life...go find ur own lil beloved child..he will treat u best like u think...coz he's ur only hope..thats y i'm gonna pity u when ur old in the future...really cant wait for the day that i can finally leave that freaking place...its not that i dun appreaciate the things u do for me...its the way u treated me all this time...never equal as u see him more perfectly than me...smarter n more usefull than me...i would remember the things u gav to me n dun worry...i will not treat u bad nor treat u good...its just nth more than that...i can promise you...

really tired.....

Hmmm....today has been a very tiring day...a day full of house chores..aihz...so tired...this afternoon went out with my loukung n his mom for lunch...then hanged out at his house for awhile...was lying comfortably on his bed...suddenly i remembered that i didnt soak the towels that my mom asked me to last nite...so i waked my baby up to fetch me home quickly...before my mom finds out n i'll kena from her again...when i reached home...my parents were all at home..i thought they already went out to giant to do some grocceries shopping...i entered my house..getting ready being scolded by her..but to my surprise she didnt even mentioned anything..haha..well lucky me...they went out without me coz i had to wait fot my uncle to come over...need to help him with translating the piano score...wanted to rest after he left...but my 3 cats already sitting in the living room, waiting to be fed...aihz...work again...one was sleeping on my bro's bed..the other two were waiting for food...such good life they have i realise..dun need to work yet they get to sleep,play n eat n same time enjoy life..aihz...sometimes i wish i'd be like them..haha...walked in n out,up n down the hall into the house n out the house for god-knows-how-many-times....aihz..they're like the king n the queens in my house..i rather be like them..after that i did some ironing...then did some house chores..didnt had the time to take a nap also la...so tired...now translating the piano scores for my uncle..there are tonnes of it..aihz..n my eyes are going to close shut anytime now...seriously tired..but have to rest my eyes n mind for awhile..so i decided to write blog again...ppl would say that i dun hav a life..most of my time i spent on doing house chores n stuff like that...thats how i spend my time during every weekend at home..yup doing house chores...plus now my dad just hurt his finger n need alot of time to recover..so i gotta take over his part of the house chores,which i hated the most..sweeping n mopping the floor...aihz...but lucky thing my timetable for this sem is quite loose..so i'll have more time for myself during the weekdays in campus where i stay in the hostel..hmm...still wondering whether the lady wants to hire me to work at her boutique anot...hmm...wanting more cash to spend n save..has been spending like hell lately..bought shoes,tops,contact lense n solution..spend alot la..aihz..still owe my fren money for the chicken stock i asked her to help my buy the other day...haha...
hmm...gotta go continue with the scores..if not cant finish then cant go to bed fast...tired ad..aihz...my life sux at this point....

bored...

so sien la today...aihz...skipped my office application class in the afternoon just now...coz i went to attend recital...then need to rush to go take my lunch before my gastric pain stikes again...hmm...by the way..cant hear what the lecturer said in class anyways...so go to his class is basically wasting time sitting there talking to my frens...so me n yikling asked eddy to help us take attendence..muahahaha...who ask that lecturer dunno how to teach...always say nonsense wan..then basically only talks to the ppl who sits in front of the class...aihz..too bad la then...dun really bother also...as long as i got attend the class at the comp lab n did my assignments then mah can ad lor...haha rite???coz all he teaches are all basic things like microsoft words n stuff like that....i also know ad la...just not really sure only mah...haha...
my dad will be having MC for this coming one month i think...hurt his finger during work yesterday...partially of his flesh from his rite hand middle finger's gone...."bitten" by the machine...hahaha...when i saw the wound...oh my god....shockingly disgusting...watt tatt!!!!!!...really...aihz..pity my dad la..suddenly like that...hopes he recover asap lor..hehe...
this morning had films and arts appreciation class with mr patrick lim...ahaha....this time we didnt watch horror film...instead it was a romantic comedy--Jerry Macguire..erm...dunno what to say bout the film la..but hav to read a journal bout it n pass it to my lecturer...lazy...aihz...how am i gonna crap bout the journal writting bout my feelings towards that movie...and minimum 150 words...aihz...yesterday wrote the journal for the horror movie--silence of the lambs also struggling ad la...hahaha...this time dunno how to start or to start with what word 1st...hahaha...well..me being lazy..haha..who cares anyway...as long as i pass my subjects with flying colourrs..mah can ad lor...hahahaha...

i love u the most...

Last nite i went to my loukung's hse to spend one nite there..we had such a great time with each other's company...we played uno,talked,chatted n watched dodgeball at nite...although didnt done much things but we had a great time...refreshing our love together...i found that i love him more than ever...he's the perfect guy any girl would want for themselves...a caring,loving n understanding loukung...who wouldnt want it rite??i know i'm lucky..to found him at such a young age..we have so much in common...we like the same candy,the same food,the same game....anything...although he's not really into believing in god...but god has brought us together..n we knew we are perfect for each other..just the way it is..he's so patient with my bad temper,always there when i needed him...he's just for there for me always..n love me so much for who i am...i know i all these while i didnt treat him as well as he treats me...yet he never even think to leave me...he keeps thinking ways to improve himself...he treats me like his princess...with alot of love and care...i know i'm not the best for him i know...but for him i will try my best to be...to treat him even better than now...to love him even more...he keeps telling me how much he love me..i regreted n feel guilty over the way i treated him last time when we 1st together..i hurt him too much..yet he never let go of me..thinking bac of the great times n memories that we both shared together is like a box of treasure to us..of which we both treasure alot...i just want him to know that..i love him the most...n i just cant live without him..coz he means the whole world to me..like my oxygen..i promise to u bi...that i will never ever forget bout u even after i die...n i love u alot...sorry for what i did to u last time...

what a day....

What a day 2day....after choir class...i had dance class...a new division under school of music..i tot it would be fun so i joined in...i love to dance...but dunno how to dance...just say that i dun have the talent at all...my bones all harden so it was quite a tough time dancing just now..we were taught by my senior...few sem older than me i think...wow she dances like a goddess...her body movements was so nice n graceful...today she taught us hip hop dance...dance movements not more than 3 minutes but it took us one n a half hours to learn the steps n movements...boy it was really tough...dunno the rite way to twist my body..so i dance very ungraceful...haha...but me n my frens really had a good time dancing...it was real fun..hehe..
After the class...i was so hungry...so quickly came bac to hostel to cook dinner...it was the 1st time i cook using microwave...haha..didnt know how to cook at all...coz all these time i'm used to cooking using stovetops...so had to trouble my frens...they helped me n teached me how to cook,soak n beehoon n stuff..haha..one thing i didnt like cooking in the pantry...the place is dirty n yucky...mayb i'm not used to it la...haha..my dinner looker weird..even doesnt seem appealing n tasty to other ppl...i was so hungry that i dun care...just start eating once i got it out of the microwave...doesnt look nice but at least still can eat la...i think it was nice..or mayb i was too hungry so any food look n taste delicious to me gua...haha...more cookings to come in this few months..gotta get used to the environment..haha..what to do..staying away from home n wanna save money at the same time..we really got not much choice..hahaha....what an experience...will never forget...=P

it started like this...cont'

After the event,i brought my hp with me to schu everyday coz we've been sending sms to each other....one day...he send me a sms asking me to be his gf...telling me how much he love me n that he's really serious with me..he knew i was really hurt in the previous relationship with another guy in my schu..i was happy then..i didnt expect anything 4m him as i'm already happy that he's willing to be frens with me..i was confused n scared n didnt know what to do...i really wanted to believe in what he told me...but i cant help wondering whether the words he said to me were real of fake as he was known as playboy...it was hard to believe that he actually liked me n asked me to be his gf...i didnt want to screw things up so i told him to give me one week's time to think about it...after that day...he would send me sweet sms every morning...telling me that he missed me n things like that...he was such a sweet guy.everyday i took schu bus home...n i was the last to get down from the bus..the 2nd last stop would be my fren's hse...which is opposite the guy's hse...one day when the bus stop outside my fren's hse...i was shocked to see him there sitting on the bench outside...with his dog,nicky..waiting to see him...once he saw he..he looked at me n flashed a big smile n waved to me...i didnt know what to do at that time...so i kinda waved stupidly at him...haha..after that...he send me sms telling me he's been there waiting for my bus to arrive so that he could see me for awhile,even if its just fora few seconds..what he said touched my heart...there was never a guy would say such things to me..i kept thinking bout what decision i should make..so i told him that i will give him a chance...see if things will work out between us...he was soo happy that he actually sweare to the god that he will treat me nicely...that he will make me happy....

it started like this...

It started last year...as i remembered...around the month of April,2005; i've changed tuition centre due to be with my fren..it seems that the particular tuition centre had hav many good teachers....n since i was to sit for a major exam end of that year......It all started like this.......

I was then a quiet student in accounts class coz i didnt know anyone except 4 my fren...a girl...there was always a chinese guy..good looking,hav very strong features where once u look at him u will always remember his face,quite tall, always late for class(thats y it made him so obvious to the eyes of everyone in the class at that time)..sitting just behind me....i didnt know when i started to fell in love with him...i even made a stupid n silly promise to myself in my heart,,saying that i will n i wanna be his last girlfriend..i wanna tame him down...i know i sounded stupid..n even silly n foolish to said those kinda things...i always see him driving his car to tuition..always looking so cool...n always..there's a gal with him...which he always fetch to tuition classes...he was known for his many relationships with alot of gals in our area..every now n then at that time i can see him with different gals...some call him playboy...i didnt get any chance to talk to him...dun even mention to look at him properly...somehow once u look at him...u wont be able to take ur eyes away from him...i started to giving up on my hope to be with him..coz there was always so many girls surrounding him whenever he goes....that was until........

Around the month of June,2005, the tuition centre that we both attended was to held an annual event,Family Day...we were to set up some game stalls for that event...coincidently,our teacher arrnaged me,my fren n him to be in one group to take in charge of a stall...after that he got together so naturally...discussing bout ideas for our stall...use what material n stuff...one day after the event meeting..we 3 sat down 2gether n chat while waiting for my fren's bro to come pick us up n send us bac..he asked me if i have boyfren..i told him i'm single at that time..he didnt believe..i asked him too..he said he's single also..but of coz i didnt believe at all..coz i just saw him with a gal,which i believe it was his gf at that time just few days ago...we went to his hse to do that project rite after our account class...too exited...hahaha....but well that was how i felt...that day was the 1st time i went to his hse,his room,met his grandma n mom....things got quite well i would say..hehe...i was kinda shy at that time...so i didnt really talk much..after we decided on what to do for our project,we started doing it rite away...i even stayed bac at his hse to do that thing...since we both had a BM tuition at 8...so he asked me to stayed bac at his place to do the project n take dinner at his hse...we did the project in front of his hse.in the middle of the road..his grandma cooked maggi mee for us got dinner..we ate rite there...in the middle of the road...what an experience..haha...he tried to take pics of me...eating noodles...haha...well that was the 1st time we spend time together...after i did some finishing touching on our project...his grandpa send us to tuition...we both had to carry the big thing up to tuition centre..on of coz we were late for class...haha...his frens kept laughing at us...asking why we come to class 2gether n late for class somemore...

that was how everything started for the both of us......

On the event day...we were all asked to go to the rented community hall nearby for a rehersal n set up all the stalls n do last minute preparation....when i arrived at the hall...i saw him sitting with my other tuition frens...he was busy drawing the stall names for them....he did quite a good job with all the drawings n i was so impressed with his ability to draw...he certainly did drew my attention...haha...half way thru the rehersal...i was looking for him coz i need him to help me with some stuff...but i counldnt find him anywhere near the hall ...so i called him..i still remember he had jolin's song as caller id song...haha...he said he's outside with a fren n will b bac n awhile...not long after that...i saw him walking with his ex outside..coming bac from somewhere...shops i think...drinking n chatting...i was unhappy...coz i tot that my chance of being with him is getting lesser n lesser...but there was nth i can do coz i know i m nobody to him...so i just kept that feeling to myself...the event started at 2pm...we just did our part n took care of our stalls...suddenly there came a gal...wearing shades,short skirt n a polo shirt to our stall....he told me that this gal is a model...n i heard that that gal used to b his ex....again...disappointment rushing thru in me..all the gals that i saw with him look pretty to me...me..a plain jane..means nth to him..that was what i tot....2 hours later it was me n my fren's turn to take a break...so we pass the job to him n went to buy something to drink n same time to spend our coupons...i was holding a can of pepsi...walking around the hall...checking out the game stalls...but all were crowded with ppl so we went bac to our stall to play a few rounds...he asked for a few sips from my drink...so i passed the pepsi to him...he drank n passed it bac to me with a smile on his face...that moment i was thinking....wow..he look so cute,so handsome..n he just shared the same drink with me...that meant a whole lot to me at that time...he gave me some hope...i was happy at that time..cant help smilling all the way...hahaha...

After we were done with our jobs and were asked to close the stalls...he called me on my hp and asked me to go to the boncing castle n meet him there...i was wondering why he asked me to go there...so i asked my fren to accompany me to find him there...when we reached there..he asked us to join him n his ex on the bouncing castle n hang out 2gether....we had a great time there...we also managed to take a picture 2gether with a small kid...which we didnt know who's kid is that...haha..soon after that we were asked to go bac to the hall area to help clean up the stuff...he left not long after that coz his grandpa was there to fetch him...so i helped him to disemble our project so he could take bac his stuff...after we all done cleaning...all were free to go bac...

All the way bac to my hse..i kept thinking bout the times we spend 2gether at the event...the sweet memories that we shared...but i dun dare to think too much..coz i dun wan to be the one who's bertepuk sebelah tangan....

to be continue......